Help Choosing a method

[artroom1931]

Sorry for any typos, not in the best state right now. Going to try and keep it brief.
My life has gone to hell and I'm finally ready to CTB. I attempted a while ago with pills, chickened out, got put in the psych ward and now I'm here still alive unfortunately. Stuck at a friend's house and they're monitoring me so I don't go anywhere alone. I'm trying to choose a good method, I feel awful my friend will be the one to find me but I need out, now.
I'm considering trying the night night method, I don't have the supplies but I do have objects to compress my neck, a belt and a plastic bag. I could also use the belt for hanging. Or I could attempt to sneak out of the house in the early morning and jump in front of a train, which I've heavily considered. I don't know what to do and my mind is in a fog, I just know I need this done. Any advice?

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I would read over the methods in the Resource Section.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/resource-compilation.3/

There is a Night Night Megathread that may have some answers as well. (I haven't really checked it out but maybe someone there could help.)

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/the-night-night-method-mega-thread.6834/

 

[InaccessibleHour]

Sorry to hear about that.
I've never liked the idea of OD as it seems too easy to fail, and if you do you're almost certainly going to end up with the fate you had to face. And you might mess up your body permanently.
I'd recommend BSing your way out of being monitored and seem like you're legitimately better, to lower their suspicion levels. Then choose a method that has a very high rate of success and is reliable.
If you don't have the proper equipment to night-night I'd advise against it as you may not press down on your carotid enough which may leave you a vegetable or you'll be """"saved"""" again. Although try it out and if you can manage to find your carotid and find another means that you're absolutely sure is failproof, like it won't loosen, it presses down fully, you have a way to spend at least half an hour without going monitored for certain, go ahead.
Use the best judgement you can. I hope you find peace whichever path you may choose...... we're all here for you if you need it.