Discussion Choosing a "harder" method because it's more appealing versus choosing an easier method?

[CantDoIt]

So I want to CTB by carbon, but SN is easier to organize and has a higher rate of success. Recently, I had some nausea in the morning and it made me panic and feel as if SN would be "difficult" for me mentally. I can calm myself with benzos but I don't know the effect of that yet. Carbon is going to be difficult for me to organize, but it feels more "right" to me. But a lot of people have survived the CO method and it has a higher chance of long-term damage.

 

[karel1987]

Yeah it's a lot of pros and cons. I switch also regularly from sn to hanging. I think it's also SI to question every method and wait for a painfree, fast and reliable death. But this will never come