Checklist to CTB

[NotOkay_]

Well I've written out checklist of what i have, to help understand why I haven't been able to CTB.
- I've explored allll my options
- i want to die 200%
- i have a method, that I'm comfortable with
- no chance of disruption
- I've written my letters
- things continue to get worse

Am i missing something?

 

[user398417]

overcome SI ?

 

[Pen>Sword]

May I ask what method you're choosing? Hopefully this isn't a sensitive question to ask.

If possible, hug ALL your loved ones. At least have that on your bucket list. They'll appreciate it.

 

[NotOkay_]

May I ask what method you're choosing? Hopefully this isn't a sensitive question to ask.

If possible, hug ALL your loved ones. At least have that on your bucket list. They'll appreciate it.

full suspension. I've hugged everyone already, don't wanna make them suspicious.

 

[Symbiote]

Wants are different than needs. "I need to die" is a much stronger argument than "I want to die". When I sat in my truck that night the wants became a need. Followed by X Y Z of why I needed to die that night, plus a bit of future scoping to see how well my family would react to my death based on past experiences with their grief and trauma. Every family is different though, it doesn't hurt to check out reddit.com/r/suicidebereavement to get a sample of what families go through during mourning of a suicide victim. It's another perspective on death from a different angle.

 

[NotOkay_]

Wants are different than needs. "I need to die" is a much stronger argument than "I want to die". When I sat in my truck that night the wants became a need. Followed by X Y Z of why I needed to die that night, plus a bit of future scoping to see how well my family would react to my death based on past experiences with their grief and trauma. Every family is different though, it doesn't hurt to check out reddit.com/r/suicidebereavement to get a sample of what families go through during mourning of a suicide victim. It's another perspective on death from a different angle.

I've done some reading on that sub for a few months and looked at all possible angles for a very long time. I NEED to die. If I didn't I wouldn't even attempt as it does take more bravery than I expected

 

[wannagohome]

Write and place a "do not rescue" advice

 

[NotOkay_]

Write and place a "do not rescue" advice

I have done

 

[Sherri]

Your method envolves a lot of bravery, I wish you eternal peace an that life brought you do this point. Remember, it's ok to hang out with us if you would like to. Regardless. Safe travels op. Hugs

 

[NotOkay_]

Your method envolves a lot of bravery, I wish you eternal peace an that life brought you do this point. Remember, it's ok to hang out with us if you would like to. Regardless. Safe travels op. Hugs

The whole thing takes a lot of bravery tbh, something I haven't been fortunate to acquire. I wish I would've done this much sooner, I'm extremely uncomfortable:((

 

[Sherri]

The whole thing takes a lot of bravery tbh, something I haven't been fortunate to acquire. I wish I would've done this much sooner, I'm extremely uncomfortable:((

Golden, I understand your pain, you don't seem ready for it in my point of view, so maybe hang around with us a little longer ok? My pm is open always open if you wanna talk.

 

[NotOkay_]

Golden, I understand your pain, you don't seem ready for it in my point of view, so maybe hang around with us a little longer ok? My pm is open always open if you wanna talk.

I am ready

 

[Sherri]

I am ready

Than aim to starts my dear, go in peace.

 

[signifying nothing]

Let go of the connections in your life, mentally and physically?

 

[greyhound]

If you're absolutely certain, maybe take some benzos to try to supress the SI beforehand.