Never seen that show, but it speaks volumes about this fiscally driven world that that people can't be honest in fear of becoming homeless or losing their money, and so that compels them to hide their desires from the people they supposedly love.
If people could tell their partners honestly how they felt if they ended up harboring affections for someone else, or could ask for permission to experiment/have a one night stand to satiate whatever curiosity they have, I do not think we would have so much cheating and dishonesty in dating culture.
I suppose it depends how comfortable one is with the idea of non-monogamy. My personal experience with handling feelings for two people at once has not been pleasant.
My bf has always been a bit of a sexual deviant and showed interest in that sort of thing. Whenever I started feeling a sort of way towards my best online friend and found him cute, I told my partner immediately, because I thought that was the right thing to do.
My boyfriend was furious. Keep in mind I had not met this person in the real world, had no intentions to either at that point, and had not acted on any of these impulses besides telling the truth to both parties when my friend confessed that he was into me.
My boyfriend went around and told all his friends online that I cheated on him and started insulting me and insinuating that I was only a plaything to be used for sex and no one REALLY liked me.
My bf essentially forbade me from talking to my best friend anymore, all the while some girl at his work was flirting with him. I saw a message on my boyfriend's phone where he told one of his friends, "I'm in bed with my gf but can't stop thinking about work girl." He told me he loved the attention he got from women at his job.
I know that there's other girls online who have teased him and said lewd/sexual things but honestly I don't care about that. I know my bf has some needs that I can't entirely fulfill because I'm not into everything he is. Even though I'm insecure I'd rather he have the freedom to explore and experiment.
As time has gone on, my bf has become more emotionally and verbally degrading towards me. I love him to bits, but the way he speaks to me sometimes is vile. He hates that I'm suicidal and gets annoyed everytime I bring it up. For months and months I longed for my best friend's presence, because he understands my plight. I would always talk to him about my problems and he always knew exactly how to listen and what to say.
Eventually one day, he reached out to me and we apologised to each other for what had happened. Again, I held back my true feelings so that there was not the potential of hurting another person. Yet, I ended up confining in him about the verbal abuse I've been taking from my bf, how inadequate I feel, how I wish I could do better for those I care about, and we started being close friends again. I feel truly ashamed to love two people at once. I feel disgusting for it.
I have tried to hold back my true thoughts and emotions, but my friend ended up coming to me and telling me he couldn't get over me. Because of our circumstances, we could never be together. I am disabled and rely on my bf completely as I have no family. He holds that fact over my head and threatens to kick me out whenever he gets real pissed at me. I am unable to work or claim benefits, and I've been forced to attend university and whittle away at my money to try and appease my bf's desires of making me functional.
Basically, I am trapped. My best friend is still in uni and the government physically will not approve a partnership between us due to his lack of income. I cried when my friend told me he loved me. Because I feel so guilty and horrified to reciprocate it while I am with my boyfriend. I feel like a monster. Before I kill myself, I really want to meet my best friend in person and show him that I care about him, however, I know my boyfriend would never allow this. He is insanely jealous and told me that my best friend is a doomer, edgy loser (he's suicidal too) and how all my friend wants to do is use me up and prey on me.
So I could never tell my boyfriend how I feel. He would throw me out on the street and tell me that I'm an evil cunt for the umpteenth time. When I told him the truth that my best friend reached out to me again he was furious with me. It further solidifies the need for me to fucking kill myself immediately. I am not good enough for my bf and I cannot give him what he wants. At the same time I am horrible for wanting more myself.
