Venting chat i am so fucking tired

[somethingYetFlowers]

Nothing works man I'm shrimply screwed. Therapists terminate me and say they can't help. I spend all my time inside numbing myself with technology. Couldn't hold down a job I just couldn't bring myself to keep doing what felt like dragging myself through barbed wire for no real reward. Nothing money could buy would make me happy. I've asked for help so many times but no matter what people say nothing changes inside me. Nobody is gonna save me and if it's up to me then I'm fucked. There is just no place for me here. Every time I work up the courage or more accurately the desperation to actually try something positive I just can't stick with it and inevitably give up. I just don't know what to do with myself. Million more things I could say but I don't even have the energy for that right now. I'm just so tired of being this person man

 

[NutOrat]

Hey, welcome to the forum! Now, I won't presume to know what you've been through, or tell you that it will get better, because no-one knows that, and there are plenty of people for whom life just didn't. But, I myself know that I had (and still often have) similar thoughts, but looking more objectively at it I can tell that there is a way out, even if I may never reach it. I will try because, well, I gave my parents the word that I will at least try for a year, and I really hope that you can give yourself if not a word (because that can put on more pressure and just not help), but at least permission to try. It feels fucking impossible, I know, but I pray it's not

 

[shcizoseraphima]

Im really sorry, all I can say is that I can relate to you, I'm very exhausted as well being this useless person... but remember you got a real community on here, and you're not alone in your struggles <3