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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

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Sep 28, 2022
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My previous methods were either jumping from height onto concrete or drowning in the ocean.

So after some discussion and thought/research i decided jumping and drowning is too scary and risky.

I read Stan's guide and now decided to save money to buy SN + all the other stuff that will make the process easier as listed in the guide.

Do you think i made a wise choice in changing my methods to this ?

My ctb will be delayed for a month or two until i save the money but i think its far safer and less chance of ending up maimed or brain damaged.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Yes, at least to me SN sounds preferable to jumping and drowning. Jumping sounds like a terrifying way to ctb, while drowning sounds horrific. It's not surprising that many people choose SN if they are able to access it as it's a reliable method (as so many have succeeded with it) and I believe that with a poison method it would be easier to overcome the SI than with other methods. I hope that when the time is right for you to leave this world, you find the freedom that you wish for.
 
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Nov 17, 2022
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I was gonna jump first too but SI is just wicked for that. Even though its easy for me to have access to heights. I just got the SN and am just rounding up the info for everything else too. I hope its peaceful and quick. If all else fails itll be back to jumping but that still scares me to a degree
 
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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

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Sep 28, 2022
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Yes, at least to me SN sounds preferable to jumping and drowning. Jumping sounds like a terrifying way to ctb, while drowning sounds horrific. It's not surprising that many people choose SN if they are able to access it as it's a reliable method (as so many have succeeded with it) and I believe that with a poison method it would be easier to overcome the SI than with other methods. I hope that when the time is right for you to leave this world, you find the freedom that you wish for.
thank you so much you are the best user on the forum imo.
I was gonna jump first too but SI is just wicked for that. Even though its easy for me to have access to heights. I just got the SN and am just rounding up the info for everything else too. I hope its peaceful and quick. If all else fails itll be back to jumping but that still scares me to a degree
are u gonna take the SN only or follow the protocol with the other meds from the guide?
 
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almaranthine

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Nov 28, 2019
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I think most people on here will agree that you made a good call. There's a reason why SN is by far the most popular method talked about on this site. To jump to your death requires the complete abandonment of your survival instinct and your last moments are not pleasant. Drowning is only "peaceful" if you can manage to do it while completely unconscious, which isn't easy to achieve.
 
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DarkRose

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Nov 25, 2022
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I was gonna jump first too but SI is just wicked for that. Even though its easy for me to have access to heights. I just got the SN and am just rounding up the info for everything else too. I hope its peaceful and quick. If all else fails itll be back to jumping but that still scares me to a degree
Can you share me how you are going to do it? what meds you are going to take with it etc?
 
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tyasma

tyasma

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Oct 14, 2022
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I really like jumping, I'm only avoiding it because I don't want to draw much attention at all to my death. The fall must be liberating.

It is true SN is "simpler" and safer though. It's my main method as well.
 
HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

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Sep 28, 2022
707
I really like jumping, I'm only avoiding it because I don't want to draw much attention at all to my death. The fall must be liberating.

It is true SN is "simpler" and safer though. It's my main method as well.
i was gonna go early hours of the morning like 3am to jump.
 
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SamTam33

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Oct 9, 2022
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I really like jumping, I'm only avoiding it because I don't want to draw much attention at all to my death. The fall must be liberating.

It is true SN is "simpler" and safer though. It's my main method as well.
This. Plus I'm addicted to the idea of knowing I'm about to die. Like REALLY about to die. That's why water will likely be my way out.

It's arguably the most powerful element on earth. Water gives zero fucks. Zero mercy.

There are certain materials fire can't burn. But water is a universal solvent and will destroy most anything if given time.

It's the only guaranteed killer for me.

Those moments between jumping and drowning will give me the only thing I've ever wanted from my death: the awareness to know that I'm about to die.

REALLY about to die.
 
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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

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Sep 28, 2022
707
This. Plus I'm addicted to the idea of knowing I'm about to die. Like REALLY about to die. That's why water will likely be my way out.

It's arguably the most powerful element on earth. Water gives zero fucks. Zero mercy.

There are certain materials fire can't burn. But water is a universal solvent and will destroy most anything if given time.

It's the only guaranteed killer for me.

Those moments between jumping and drowning will give me the only thing I've ever wanted from my death: the awareness to know that I'm about to die.

REALLY about to die.
i 100% get you and wanted to jump or drown myself but people said it can fail especially drowning since i can swim.
 
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Enemy of Evolution

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Nov 9, 2022
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I am thinking taking SN near a lake.

Carrying heavy bricks in my backpack. Strapping my backpack to myself with good knots. Then drinking SN while lying very near the water. As I will go unconscious I will drown too.

How's that.
 
TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,012
This would be my method of choice too if somehow I couldn't (for any reason) access my primary means to CTB. The biggest hurdle of SN for me is acquisition as I don't know a feasible way to obtain it and would rather not raise red flags or alarms in an attempt to acquire it. My life circumstances changed (where I no longer lived on my own, with more privacy and such) in 2020 and late 2021 such that I oftenly see 2019 as the best year to check out for me. Anyways, I don't want to ramble on and on, but I will say SN is a good candidate based on what I've read only if I could acquire it more easily.
 
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HermitLonerGuy

HermitLonerGuy

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Sep 28, 2022
707
I am thinking taking SN near a lake.

Carrying heavy bricks in my backpack. Strapping my backpack to myself with good knots. Then drinking SN while lying very near the water. As I will go unconscious I will drown too.

How's that.
becareful cause someone did something similar, they took a back pack and loaded with books and just ended up floating.
 
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SSGoingInsane

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Mar 8, 2023
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i 100% get you and wanted to jump or drown myself but people said it can fail especially drowning since i can swim.
How can you even fail from jumping? I suppose you wouldn't jump from a lower height than like a 5-6 story building
 

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