Eren
Si hablas español mándame un MP
- Oct 27, 2018
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There are no dramas or serious illnesses in my life, I just do not enjoy life, I am tired of loneliness and that life does not make sense, so much effort simply to continue living in a way that I hate.
In a post I already talked about my possible Asperger (I am in the process of diagnosis) for people who do not have Asperger it is difficult to understand what it is like to live with it, basically it is like being in a prison of absolute solitude, both in friendships and at the level of couple. It's not that it's the worst in the world but I hate being like that, I don't think it's worth it.
Life becomes a routine of going to work and being at home playing on the computer, always, to the point that sometimes I prefer to work than being at home, the few IRL friends I have had have been a brutal disappointment.
I am at a point, I do not care if I am fired from work or anything, I do not care, I just want to finish. The only thing that binds me to this world is the survival instinct and feeling bad for my mother.
Is anyone else caught up in such a routine?
In a post I already talked about my possible Asperger (I am in the process of diagnosis) for people who do not have Asperger it is difficult to understand what it is like to live with it, basically it is like being in a prison of absolute solitude, both in friendships and at the level of couple. It's not that it's the worst in the world but I hate being like that, I don't think it's worth it.
Life becomes a routine of going to work and being at home playing on the computer, always, to the point that sometimes I prefer to work than being at home, the few IRL friends I have had have been a brutal disappointment.
I am at a point, I do not care if I am fired from work or anything, I do not care, I just want to finish. The only thing that binds me to this world is the survival instinct and feeling bad for my mother.
Is anyone else caught up in such a routine?