Cat is keeping me from trying to actively ctb

[Final Escape]

I'm really surprised how much this little kitten is an anchor for me to not start taking steps to ctb. I would be so fucked right now if he wasn't here and yet for awhile there I kept trying to rehome him while in terrible suicidal ideation from emotional flashback.
I know there is help for intense suicidal ideation but it's still difficult for me to reach out when I'm in that state. I wish I was gone though there's nothing to look forward to for me :("

 

[Can'tStandAnymore]

Awww :)

 

[ChristopherWalken]

I don't think I would have made it this far were it not for my 2 cats. I love them so much and I think I could get by indefinitely even if they were all I had. I feel so bad for them but there's no other way out for me. I hope you find a way to hang on.

 

[talktomeee]

I feel this way about my dog. I wonder how he is going to take it.

 

[Jean4]

I recently tried and failed. When I was locked in the ward, all I could think about was my cat. I knew if anything happened to me, all my cats would be PTS. Especially my favorite.

The only thing keeping me from trying again is my cat. I would feel to guilty killing him.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

My dog is that for me. He is literally one of the only reasons I'm still here. I look over at him sleeping next to me and just cry sometimes. Pets really are wonderful and comfort us when we feel our worst.

 

[Darkhaven]

I have two.
One is 9 the other is 7 and they will probably be around for quite some time.
I don't know what to do. I don't want to leave them with my mother.

 

[Dystopia]

Feels like my cats can sense when I'm in a bad state and they always sit on my bed and keep me company. Cats purring seem to have some mild anti depressant feeling sometimes :)

 

[coma-baby]

My cat has came up to me as I was getting ready to trying hanging at least twice now. She'll meow at me and get my attention and rub against my leg and just shower me with love in that moment. I feel so guilty because I still want to ctb, but I don't want to break her heart. Which is sad, because I'm over that worry when it comes to my human family members/friends. But knowing that my cat won't know why I'm gone destroys me in the worst way, keeping me tethered here.

 

[Pony]

When I was 14 and about to attempt to ctb, my dog who is usually very hyper came over and sat beside me very calmly and I am convinced she could tell something was wrong

 

[Lilanel]

Ah, I feel you. I love my cats. They're the only thing in my life that's really uncomplicated. They want food, water, a clean litter box, and cuddles. Nothing more, nothing less.

I don't know if they'd miss me if I CTB, though. Cats are pretty good at adapting to new circumstances if necessary

 

[bigj75]

yae pets can really aid in stuff like this. some people wait to ctb until their pets pass away. or they keep the will to live from their pets and then they end up dying after the pets pass.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

My cats are also my anchor. I'd have been long gone by now without those fuzzy little faces. It's hard, I have to go some time, so they will be given to either of my parents who love animals. I'd prefer my dad but he's 6 hours away and the poor cats hate that, but my mum is right here, yet she forgets to feed them, water them and neglects them. They all sleep with me.

 

[Woodnote]

I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for my dogs. They mean more to me than anything in the world. I might wait to ctb until they pass away. They've been here for me when nobody else has. If I can, I'd like to do the same for them.

 

[Girobatol]

I euthanized my 2 cats before getting the N. I told the vet that I had cancer and they were running the risk of being abandoned.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Bless your moggy. Maybe he is pro life?

 

[Girobatol]

Yes. If there's no better solution, this is reasonable.

I tried to get them (2) adopted but no one did. It hurts me everytime but if I'm ctb I know in the end it was the thing to do. They got N and I am expecting to drink N myself.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I had cats since I was five, now I have three cats, one is from bad owner and two are from the street. The youngest is a chonker, she brings me so much joy. I will miss her and all my other cats.
When I die my ex will take care of them.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

I tried to get them (2) adopted but no one did. It hurts me everytime but if I'm ctb I know in the end it was the thing to do. They got N and I am expecting to drink N myself.

Oh my god this story is heartbreaking. I am so, so so sorry. Oh my... If there is an afterlife, they will be pleased to see you.. xx

 

[talktomeee]

He will be devastated and his world will break apart - out of all hope, desperate, broken and alone, he's likely to end up in some institution that will then euthanize him, or on the street where some psychopath (or a car, hunger, the cold) kills him. There's not much to wonder about. Dogs cannot survive in this world without their humans - we made it so, and now we want to bugger out, mostly for self-pity.

Well he won't be alone. All of my family is very close to him and I know my mom will watch him. My mom watches him a lot and loves him to death. I wouldnt leave this world without setting him up with a nice life

 

[SoupSnakes]

This thread is so heartwarming, I love seeing how many people love their pets and how much they help them.

My dog is exactly that for me, unfortunately I am past the point of it stopping me. My ex will take care of him so I know he'll be in good hands and he'll get the care he deserves. I don't think he'll miss me for too long.

 

[Corraled]

Ah, I feel you. I love my cats. They're the only thing in my life that's really uncomplicated. They want food, water, a clean litter box, and cuddles. Nothing more, nothing less.

I don't know if they'd miss me if I CTB, though. Cats are pretty good at adapting to new circumstances if necessary

By adapting you mean dying of hunger on the street?

 

[Lilanel]

By adapting you mean dying of hunger on the street?

No, I meant my parents would take them, they'd adapt to me being gone.

 

[Fragile]

i lost my kitty 2 years ago, she suffered terribly from health issues and i decided to have her euthanized, even in her pain, she was such a loving little animal. it stil hurts horribly to this day, even the passing of my father felt like nothing in comparison.

i really hope that i get to meet her again, and if everything goes according to my plans, i'll be leaving whith the same drug, real soon.

 

[color_me_gone]

Cats are a gift to humans.

 

[Sweet emotion]

I have two cats. Tyler and Perry named after Steven and Joe of Aerosmith. Because Tyler sings and can't shut up and Perry is very laid back. And he tried to get into my pill bag haha. They've made me very happy for a very long time and I know if I didn't have those two fur balls in my life I'd probably never smile. But lately I've been so depressed that I walk right by them. It's not like it bothers them. The only time they want me is for food. They're not affectionate and they like to be by themselves. But they are so damn cute and their personalities are big. Different from each other. Tyler is my love and Perry is my mother's she cares for me due to my physical illness. When we went to adopt them from angels of animals we were only planning on adopting Tyler but when we showed up there was another little orange puff ball sleeping on his butt. And I couldn't tear them apart. So I took both home. They had four other brothers and one sister and their mother was up for adoption too. I would have adopted the whole family if I could. I always wonder how they turned out and what it would be like if they were all brought together. My last cat Jake was my love. When he died I kept his ashes. I to myself I wouldn't kill myself until he was gone because he loved me so much. But these two cats, I don't think they'd miss me at all.

By adapting you mean dying of hunger on the street?

I don't know what he means but I don't think cats are good at adapting. When we had to move the new apartment threw then off a lot. They're creatures of habit so adapting isn't what they're really great at.

I don't think I would have made it this far were it not for my 2 cats. I love them so much and I think I could get by indefinitely even if they were all I had. I feel so bad for them but there's no other way out for me. I hope you find a way to hang on.

What are you going to do with them?

I feel this way about my dog. I wonder how he is going to take it.

He will most likely be heart broken. Have you made plans for him?

I euthanized my 2 cats before getting the N. I told the vet that I had cancer and they were running the risk of being abandoned.
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OMG that must have been absolutely heart breaking. And they were healthy?

I tried to get them (2) adopted but no one did. It hurts me everytime but if I'm ctb I know in the end it was the thing to do. They got N and I am expecting to drink N myself.

I understand. I know my cats would not be able to handle another family. It would be cruel to put them through that hell. Thank God my mother is here to care for them.

 

[Mr2005]

Meow. I know what you mean

 

[jgm63]

If you were intending to CTB, could you give the cat to someone else to look after ?

Alternatively, could you have the cat euthanised ? I believe it is very peaceful and they don't suffer....
e.g. You could tell the vet you have a terminal illness, and that you don't believe that cat will be happy if they have to be re-housed....

That might be better than the cat having to be rehoused and being unhappy because you are gone....
A cat is still a spiritual being, and that being would probably understand why you did that, and be okay with it....

Just trying to help with a difficult subject.....

Well he won't be alone. All of my family is very close to him and I know my mom will watch him. My mom watches him a lot and loves him to death. I wouldnt leave this world without setting him up with a nice life

I think your dog will be okay if he is with people that love him.....