kosameAmagai
Member
- Apr 25, 2022
- 26
its been like this for years now, i wake up wishing that i wasn't here, i spend my day locked in my room daydreaming and drowning in suicidal thoughts, and i go to sleep wishing that i dont wake up next day ... i just wish i could feel pleasure in something, nothing that i do gives me any ease, i just think about killing myself every hour or so, i wish there was an way to change but i dont think i ever will, i have switched between all kind of antidepressants that exist out there i really cant see a brigther light or an way that the future me will be happy and its not like i have someone that loves me or anything, i dont have any friends and i barely leave my room, only my family(not even 100%sure)+ dog cares about me, i really dont know why i havent ctb yet guess i just dont have the guts, i keep wondering if i will be alive next year or no, what should i do ? ... im so lost i wish i could just disappear forever