Ardesevent
It’s the end of the line, cowboy
- Feb 2, 2020
- 358
I don't want to watch myself rot. I don't want to watch myself fall even further behind everyone else. I don't want to go out and fails at fixing my problems. I don't want to live.
I know life is pointless, and the only thing you can do is have fun. But when you can't do that, what is there to live for? In my current state, I can't even impact someone else's life positively, if at all.
When I look back at my life so far, all it's been is a series of failures. I failed to reach out and make friends in grade school. I failed to do the same in middle school, then high school. I failed to trust the right people. I failed to do anything productive with my time. And now I've lost all motivation to do my work in college, so I'll most likely fail there too. I can't stand the thought of going on and having it happen again.
I know life is pointless, and the only thing you can do is have fun. But when you can't do that, what is there to live for? In my current state, I can't even impact someone else's life positively, if at all.
When I look back at my life so far, all it's been is a series of failures. I failed to reach out and make friends in grade school. I failed to do the same in middle school, then high school. I failed to trust the right people. I failed to do anything productive with my time. And now I've lost all motivation to do my work in college, so I'll most likely fail there too. I can't stand the thought of going on and having it happen again.