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cantbe
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- Aug 4, 2020
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I'm in a weird mindset for several weeks where I keep thinking I'm magically going to CTB today somehow. Like KCN or a gun is just going to fall into my lap from somewhere or I'll get the courage for full suspension or stand in front of the train or I'll miraculously die in my sleep.
Or that I can will myself to get better from PSSD, anhedonia and psych drug withdrawal in like a day.
I wish a miracle would happen. I feel like I'm in a dangerous mindset and have no idea what to do. I haven't been able to eat or get out of bed to do the basics like wash myself or laundry. Everyday I don't CTB my responsibilities pile up and I can't do them. But my family is depending on me to earn money soon and think I'm fine though they see me unable to do the basics. I don't know how this is going to end. Work starts soon.
Would be gratefulfor any replies.
Or that I can will myself to get better from PSSD, anhedonia and psych drug withdrawal in like a day.
I wish a miracle would happen. I feel like I'm in a dangerous mindset and have no idea what to do. I haven't been able to eat or get out of bed to do the basics like wash myself or laundry. Everyday I don't CTB my responsibilities pile up and I can't do them. But my family is depending on me to earn money soon and think I'm fine though they see me unable to do the basics. I don't know how this is going to end. Work starts soon.
Would be gratefulfor any replies.