sivvie
Wanderer
- Aug 23, 2021
- 84
I'm in so much pain. It's fucking unbearable, I feel like I'm going to lose my mind. I'm not over survival instincts yet but it's so hard to live I don't know what the fuck to do. This is torture. I feel so emotionally unstable, I completely despise myself at this point.
I'm so depressed, I'm not eating or drinking water. I haven't showered in weeks. I don't even have the energy to cry or be actively suicidal anymore.
What do I even do at this point? Am I supposed to just push myself to do it when I feel hesitant and am overthinking it? Do I wait? How long will I have to wait? I'm so tired. I wish I could just die. I wish I had N. I wish I could overcome SI.
I'm so depressed, I'm not eating or drinking water. I haven't showered in weeks. I don't even have the energy to cry or be actively suicidal anymore.
What do I even do at this point? Am I supposed to just push myself to do it when I feel hesitant and am overthinking it? Do I wait? How long will I have to wait? I'm so tired. I wish I could just die. I wish I had N. I wish I could overcome SI.