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pleasehelpmedie
Member
- Jan 9, 2023
- 11
I've been suicidal for more than 7 years now and I have attempted to ctb multiple times starting from my teens. I started cutting even before I knew self harm was a real thing. Whatever life event I'm going through, this feeling used to be constant. I lost my brother to drowning in 2021 and my life had never been the same. He was my favorite person in the entire world whom I could go to for anything and suddenly it was like I lost everything. I have ADHD and BPD and life in general has been very tough to me. I had always been happy to die even when I was at my happiest.
SN isn't available for me to acquire or the other necessary stuff, I'm currently staying with my parents as I was visiting them for my study break. I'm in a bad place with my physical health to the point I cannot even control my bowel movements. Since I am already sick my parents wouldn't suspect anything if I was getting more sick. I wanted some method or overdose which could be easily available and would slowly lead me to ctb.
SN isn't available for me to acquire or the other necessary stuff, I'm currently staying with my parents as I was visiting them for my study break. I'm in a bad place with my physical health to the point I cannot even control my bowel movements. Since I am already sick my parents wouldn't suspect anything if I was getting more sick. I wanted some method or overdose which could be easily available and would slowly lead me to ctb.