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Arcanist
- Jun 29, 2018
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My whole family father, mother, brother knows I'm highly suicidal as I was in a coma from an OD a couple of years ago because of a chronic health issue that seems to have no end. It's known as chronic pelvic pain syndrome in one way but takes on several different names like interstitial cystitis, chronic prostatitis/bacterial prostatitis, CUTI (chronic UTI). It's pretty much like I have a leaking faucet down there as I always need to go and feel occasional small leaks into my urethra and I have been through almost every treatment possible that you can imagine in these almost five years. I'm on long term antibiotics now to finally kill off the infection and hopefully go back to normal, but I am really mind fucked at this point. It all happened one night where I had trouble urinating from psych meds and they didn't follow the proper protocol at the hospital as my bladder was empty and some angry gay nurse came and basically raped me with it shoving it up my dick cutting and infecting me long term in the process. I tried to sue but that won't nowhere as I can't even get my records from this scumbag attorney who I know made a deal behind my back because of the way the case went. Long story short, I have been abusing my meds that I get from several different doctors to make it through the day as I just numb myself all the time. I really just want my family to get together and say look you did some good things in your life son like finishing a double major in college and then working your way up to a case manager. You could have been a great social worker as you were getting ready to do your masters but you got fucked and there's no turning back so let's call it a life for your already. Does this make sense to anybody or am I being selfish?