Alain
Student
- Mar 11, 2020
- 107
I tried, three years ago, to hang myself. I failed and I don't know why. I started to blackout but my hard breathing became so loud it woke me up (at least I think this is what woke me up). It didn't hurt as much as I thought it would, but maybe it was because I used a scarf and maybe that scarf is why it failed.
Since, I tried to find the perfect way to ctb with no suffering at all. I just bought helium but I'm not sure I will do it correctly and I don't want to end alive with a totally fucked up brain.
I live in France, where drugs are hard to get (even medicine with a very small amount of codeine requires a prescription).
What would be effective, easy to prepare, cheap, and absolutely painless? I don't want blood, for me as for people who will find me. My beloved sister must not see a destroyed body or any graphic stuffs when she'll look at me in my coffin.
Thanks for any help.
Since, I tried to find the perfect way to ctb with no suffering at all. I just bought helium but I'm not sure I will do it correctly and I don't want to end alive with a totally fucked up brain.
I live in France, where drugs are hard to get (even medicine with a very small amount of codeine requires a prescription).
What would be effective, easy to prepare, cheap, and absolutely painless? I don't want blood, for me as for people who will find me. My beloved sister must not see a destroyed body or any graphic stuffs when she'll look at me in my coffin.
Thanks for any help.