Discussion Can you remember the last time you were happy?

[Ardesevent]

I've forgotten what made me happy before. I remember being happy, but can't remember how or why I felt that way. Most of the memories where I remember being happy I can barely recall anything from anymore, since they were all in my early childhood.
Is it the same way for all of you too?

 

[Alec]

I was never happy, not a day in my life. I was terrified and lived in pure fear all my life. But I know maybe people are in the same situation as you. They remember being happy in the early childhood, but memories start to fade away for them.

 

[AnotherBrick]

Surprisingly, I was the closest to content (not happy per se) last month than I'd been in a decade. I thought my medicine was finally starting to actually do something. I've tried at least 7 different anti depressants and even some low dosed antipsychotics. I had given up hope of any of them working until those few weeks.

But I guess it was just another one of life's jokes. Not only did it end, I've been deteriorating into some of my worst depressions and breakdowns yet. My psychiatrist just added a second ssri to take on top of my current one and the GP I went to for a second opinion agrees.

It hasn't done shit, of course.

Outside of that outlier, no. I can't remember the last time I was happy or content.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Yes, 2 years ago. It lasted 2 weeks. The next 2 months were happyish with moderate despair and the rest from that point on is where I am now.

 

[BorderlineSuicidal]

Wait. You guys used to be happy?

 

[Nymph]

Can't remember when I was truly happy but I do get a little happy when I buy something new. I'm a pretty materialistic person. But the happiness doesn't last long, usually just a couple minutes. Not that I'm not happy anymore that I got something I wanted but I just..can't. Idk, I just can't be truly happy. My body my mind everything is depressed and dead

 

[Nutmeg]

People think that laughing is a sign of happiness, but I think that's not always true. I laughed alot because I like to laugh even during hard times but I have never been happy.
In my opinion, being happy means being confortable and safe. I've never felt confortable or safe.

 

[AlreadyGone]

Prior to last year. Haven't been happy ever since.

 

[fat feet]

I've forgotten what made me happy before. I remember being happy, but can't remember how or why I felt that way. Most of the memories where I remember being happy I can barely recall anything from anymore, since they were all in my early childhood.
Is it the same way for all of you too?

I remember going on a plane and being terrified because it was the first time in my life I did not want to die. I was happy for a good 13 years, some ups and downs and now I am back to not giving a shit. (sad face here)
My childhood was very unhappy. I remember being the only young child that listened to all of the sad songs and related to them. My mother, I realized when I was older did not treat me as I was one of her favoured children. So I kept my head down and tired not to exist.

 

[almost_dead]

years baby

 

[Deleted member 17331]

Yes, I remembered that today. But it doesn't make sense.

It doesn't make sense that happy memories are so painful now...

 

[minkymomo]

the last time i played a game with my ex and fell asleep cuddled in his arms while he told me he loves me
yea he left me the next day and said he didnt love me

 

[Deafsn0w]

I was happy when I was 5 and younger. I was carefree and didn't worry about things like responsibilities. Adult responsibilities suck lol

 

[Gentleman]

Today. And yet...