Inferdan

Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
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Either killing yourself in the dream or by the dream. Whichever you choose :p
 
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Mr2005

Mr2005

Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
Sep 25, 2018
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Suicides the last thing on my mind in dreams. The nightmare starts when I wake up
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I've died many different ways in dreams. My body goes limp and I still see out of my eyes but am unable to move. I love vivid dreams, but unfortunately you wake up and the real nightmare that is life is still there.
 
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CuddleHug

CuddleHug

Back, but with less enthusiasm. Hugs~
Feb 22, 2020
259
I have CTB many times in dreams. Usually I didn't feel much, it was always pretty matter-of-fact. Gathered my supplies and just went through with it. No struggle, no fear, no survival instinct. Just a peaceful end.

Then I wake up, confused, wondering what went wrong, thinking I failed somehow. Slowly realising it was just a dream, then feeling disappointed.
 
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GoodPersonEffed

GoodPersonEffed

Brevity is my middle name, but my name was TL
Jan 11, 2020
6,727
OMG I cracked up when I saw this in the feed! I thought, "It has to be @Inferdan."

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BTW you can, but it requires meto.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
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Either killing yourself in the dream or by the dream. Whichever you choose :p

I wish I could kill myself in my dream and never wake up. :aw::aw:
 
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Inferdan

Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
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Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
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I had a dream last night were I tried killing myself, unfortunately in any of the dreams/nightmares I have, I have never actually managed to die, its like its impossible for my mind to risk it happening, I have no idea
 
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LastRide

LastRide

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Jan 23, 2020
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Funnily enough I have never ctb'd in my dreams, but I die quite frequently in them...funnily enough when I die in my dream I wake up ! And of course I'm disappointed...but why do you wake up? You'd think since death is complete unconscious nothingness, if you dream about dying you'd just slip back into the deep non-dreaming type of sleep. But no it always wakes me up. Does that happen to anyone else here?
 
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Inferdan

Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
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Funnily enough I have never ctb'd in my dreams, but I die quite frequently in them...funnily enough when I die in my dream I wake up ! And of course I'm disappointed...but why do you wake up? You'd think since death is complete unconscious nothingness, if you dream about dying you'd just slip back into the deep non-dreaming type of sleep. But no it always wakes me up. Does that happen to anyone else here?
I've had a few dreams as so, and it wakes me up every time I die. You're not alone. Maybe it's the shock from it? Not you, but bodily shock, waking you to make sure it hasn't died. Idk, just a guess.
 
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I actually tried this once. I jumped off a huge cliff and plummeted towards the ground. I stopped at the last moment one foot above the ground, completely unharmed. I forgot that I can fly in my dreams.
 
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CuddleHug

CuddleHug

Back, but with less enthusiasm. Hugs~
Feb 22, 2020
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Just thought of a follow-up question that might be difficult to answer.

If you could kill yourself in your dream and go on to the nothingness/afterlife/whatever, but your body remained in a vegetative state or coma, would you do it?
 
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Inferdan

Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
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Just thought of a follow-up question that might be difficult to answer.

If you could kill yourself in your dream and go on to the nothingness/afterlife/whatever, but your body remained in a vegetative state or coma, would you do it?
That does make the decision a little easier...still not certain though.
 
peacefully31425

peacefully31425

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Aug 28, 2018
162
Could I or would I?


I would
 
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Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

Enlightened
Mar 5, 2019
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I've died many different ways in dreams. My body goes limp and I still see out of my eyes but am unable to move. I love vivid dreams, but unfortunately you wake up and the real nightmare that is life is still there.
I feel this, died in my dreams a bunch of times. Even though cause of death is not always self inflicted there is always a surprising amount of calm that goes with it (that may be something to do with waking up though)
DBD
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
I feel this, died in my dreams a bunch of times. Even though cause of death is not always self inflicted there is always a surprising amount of calm that goes with it (that may be something to do with waking up though)
DBD
It's not always self inflicted for me either. But damn it can be a trip nonetheless. There is a very distinct calm that accompanies it as you've said!
 
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LastRide

LastRide

Specialist
Jan 23, 2020
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I feel this, died in my dreams a bunch of times. Even though cause of death is not always self inflicted there is always a surprising amount of calm that goes with it (that may be something to do with waking up though)
DBD
Yes actually, you're totally right, the feeling of calm and I'd say even happiness is quite amazing..though I really don' t think it's the waking up that causes it, actually when I do wake up it's quite disappointing and the sadness sets in...I get that calm happy feeling the very moment when I die in my dreams, just before waking up. It's never ever self-inflicted though, strangely enough, but always from violent external causes - I'm always being executed or murdered or I have some bizarre accident ! Maybe this is just my deep-seated unconscious telling me I want to die but I'd prefer not to do it myself if it could happen some other way? Or is it projecting the violence needed to kill yourself to some external cause so you feel better about it? Maybe some way to get rid of the guilt I feel is inherent to my suicide?
 
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Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
2,225
I keep thinking back to my dream last night, it involved me ending everything and everyone around me was happy that was happening, waiting for me to go so they could live in peace. The peace for them, i cannot wait to become reality, i just wish the supportive side would one day be reality, but IF that was ever the case, ill be long gone
 
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Justaroguegear

Justaroguegear

Tired
Mar 11, 2020
79
I committed suicide many times in my dreams. A lot of the time there's something after but sometimes there's nothing. It's pretty scary every time, and makes me wonder how I'll feel when I actually do it.
 
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Epsilon0

Enlightened
Dec 28, 2019
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Death by REM = your brain explodes because you are trying to understand what Stipe is singing on What's the frequency, Kenneth?
 
Ko9

Ko9

Student
Jun 30, 2019
159
Well, I am a coward but suicide in my dreams is getting run over by a bus and I can feel it driving over my back and tend to wake up screaming. It's almost always night and rainy in my dreams when it takes place. As far as I know I also have jumped a lot for the reason of CTB which is the only method I think I can m a y b e pull off.
 
Finis Autem Spero

Finis Autem Spero

Dec 30, 2019
259
I've had a few dreams recently where I've tried blowing my head off. Literally two shotgun blasts to the front and side with no damage, one where I used a revolver and left a gaping hole the other side that caused no ill effects. Never managed to die in my dreams, that I can recall anyway.

Retrospectively, they were fascinating dreams. I've been suicidal for almost two decades and these are the only dreams where I've ever tried to kill myself. It's strange because I see my dreams as a pure escape from this reality and my issues in my waking life never really appear in my dreams. Even when I have what people would consider nightmares, I enjoy them for the view into my subconscious that it provides.
 
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oxymoron

oxymoron

Arcanist
Jul 18, 2019
439
I've had a few dreams recently where I've tried blowing my head off. Literally two shotgun blasts to the front and side with no damage, one where I used a revolver and left a gaping hole the other side that caused no ill effects. Never managed to die in my dreams, that I can recall anyway.

Retrospectively, they were fascinating dreams. I've been suicidal for almost two decades and these are the only dreams where I've ever tried to kill myself. It's strange because I see my dreams as a pure escape from this reality and my issues in my waking life never really appear in my dreams. Even when I have what people would consider nightmares, I enjoy them for the view into my subconscious that it provides.
Two decades? What are you made of? I have been two years and I already cannot do this anymore.
 
Finis Autem Spero

Finis Autem Spero

Dec 30, 2019
259
Two decades? What are you made of? I have been two years and I already cannot do this anymore.

I'm made of the result of several failed attempts and an excellent capacity for distraction :ahhha:

Also stories, can't bear to leave without seeing some stories finished.

Honestly, I'm just that used to it that it feels part of me. On good days, I'll forget all about it but most of the time it's just a constant background chant of "Fuck this, I'd be better off not existing." and more dire thoughts when I'm feeling particularly bad.
 
Inferdan

Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
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I'm made of the result of several failed attempts and an excellent capacity for distraction :ahhha:

Also stories, can't bear to leave without seeing some stories finished.

Honestly, I'm just that used to it that it feels part of me. On good days, I'll forget all about it but most of the time it's just a constant background chant of "Fuck this, I'd be better off not existing." and more dire thoughts when I'm feeling particularly bad.
I can relate to this, there are days when it becomes static, hovering outside my conscious thoughts, subdued and away. Those days hurt a little less, when I can pretend more easily and move around without hurting. Of course, when those dark thoughts come to the forefront, then the up has become a low. And then there are the unlikely very lows, because the rock bottom can always crumble to reveal another layer of the abyssmal pit that we're all in.
 
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lucid

lucid

antinatalist specialist
Jun 29, 2019
177
I've never had a dream where death has been self-inflicted, though I wish I would. It's always being killed or watching someone else die. Just finally seeing what it'd be like to do it in any way would be such a comfort to me. And then, maybe one day, the dream will take me with it.
 
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Inferdan

Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
450
I've never had a dream where death has been self-inflicted, though I wish I would. It's always being killed or watching someone else die. Just finally seeing what it'd be like to do it in any way would be such a comfort to me. And then, maybe one day, the dream will take me with it.
I'm sorry to hear, my friend. I can understand that, it would be such a relief to know how it would look, how it would feel like, especially in a dream. I do hope you get the comfort you want one night, so you can feel less nervous when the time comes. And when it does, may it be painless, and you find yourself somewhere more peaceful, tranquil. A place that you need, want, and deserve :)
 
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