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not_a_robot

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I am so blown away by Oceanne's calm determination in her CTB video.
Can anyone who speaks Language de L'amour translate what she was saying for me? This vid contains some long quiet spots while she just reads her comments. I want to know what she had to say.

 
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I can, and I will within the next hour or 2 unless someone else gets around to it I am curious myself.
I will summarize.
0-1:08 She is recording while she waits, it is 12:25 clock and not time yet. She talks about the video she is intending to make, she is not making it to create buzz, but to make people react and to open their minds, that is the only reason. It will be released at 4 o'clock. "You will see, you will see" she says, wait she says. No, there will be no hints, she says. She doesn't care what people think, the message will come across.

Then the entire rest of the video she is totally quiet until all of a sudden everything goes dark. She doesn't say anything until all of a sudden she is in the trunk of her car while you can hear the muffled sounds of EMT from outside until they finally open in up to find the camera and presumably her body inside.

Which isn't all that interesting, there has got to be more footage leading up to this, I'll look into this some more later. Rabbit hole.
 
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I can, and I will within the next hour or 2 unless someone else gets around to it I am curious myself.
I will summarize.
0-1:08 She is recording while she waits, it is 12:25 clock and not time yet. She talks about the video she is intending to make, she is not making it to create buzz, but to make people react and to open their minds, that is the only reason. It will be released at 4 o'clock. "You will see, you will see" she says, wait she says. No, there will be no hints, she says. She doesn't care what people think, the message will come across.

Then the entire rest of the video she is totally quiet until all of a sudden everything goes dark. She doesn't say anything until all of a sudden she is in the trunk of her car while you can hear the muffled sounds of EMT from outside until they finally open in up to find the camera and presumably her body inside.

Which isn't all that interesting, there has got to be more footage leading up to this, I'll look into this some more later. Rabbit hole.

The original version was probably censored because too many people were getting triggered.
 
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The original version was probably censored because too many people were getting triggered.

You're right, the suicide itself appears to have been edited out entirely, I can't make heads or tails out of how all of a sudden she's in the trunk of a car out of nowhere. The vlog she made just prior to this one might contain more information since she appears to talk more in it. But her youtube content appears to have been largely or wholly removed since I can't find any of her content other than those 2 videos and another channel that appears to be an homage channel. IDK. Very interesting though.
 
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*A young 19 years old woman recorded herself on Periscope, the live video-streaming app, describing her despair and then killing herself by jumping in front of a commuter train in suburban Paris at 4:29 p.m. on Tuesday at the Égly station, about 25 miles south of Paris.
Before jumping under the train, she said "what i'm going to do is very shocking"
The video doesn't show her death, but at the end you can see a fireman picking the telephone on the ground after her death.
The poor girl was raped by a close friend, who filmed it and shared the video on internet. She couldn't stand the shame, and decided to end her life.

*Text from liveleak.com

This happened 3 years ago.
 
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That poor girl. My heart really goes out to victims of sexual abuse. Like I can't even wrap my head around the idea of ruining someone's life just for your jollies. But then people in Detroit get murdered over a candy bar each year so I guess society is just well and truly screwed up at this point.
 
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That poor girl. My heart really goes out to victims of sexual abuse. Like I can't even wrap my head around the idea of ruining someone's life just for your jollies. But then people in Detroit get murdered over a candy bar each year so I guess society is just well and truly screwed up at this point.

Capitalism is essentially scamming people out of money for your jollies... If you give people a fair deal, then that would be like bartering and no profit would be made. The whole world is basically encouraging people to do whatever the fuck they want to do just for their jollies... Humanity has lost it's ability to understand the importance of being civilized yet see themselves as civilized because of this... Honor and loyalty has been flushed down the toilet for pleasure. Cheating and adultery has become seen as normal. Deception has become seen as normal. Pretty much everything people can do to screw over other people for their jollies is considered normal now except committing certain crimes... But those laws only apply to poor people... So in the brain of a beast who only seeks pleasure, sooner or later he is going to sexually abuse people. Such "human beings" are no different than brain dead chimps.
 
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Capitalism is essentially scamming people out of money for your jollies... If you give people a fair deal, then that would be like bartering and no profit would be made. The whole world is basically encouraging people to do whatever the fuck they want to do just for their jollies... Humanity has lost it's ability to understand the importance of being civilized yet see themselves as civilized because of this... Honor and loyalty has been flushed down the toilet for pleasure. Cheating and adultery has become seen as normal. Deception has become seen as normal. Pretty much everything people can do to screw over other people for their jollies is considered normal now except committing certain crimes... But those laws only apply to poor people... So in the brain of a beast who only seeks pleasure, sooner or later he is going to sexually abuse people. Such "human beings" are no different than brain dead chimps.

all crime and bad behavior is normal, except wanting to escape it, like we do. That's unacceptable!
 
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all crime and bad behavior is normal, except wanting to escape it, like we do. That's unacceptable!
Yep. But we are "darkness" and we are "evil."
 
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oh and she wasn't in a trunk, she jumped under a train.
Yep. We are "darkness" and we are "evil."
we are "murderers"! "evil"!
/eyeroll
 
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Difficult to understand why a young beauty such as this would willingly meet such a violent end. She had a ton of mileage left in her and could have easily lived down a stupid internet sex video, does she have any idea how many women get away with carousel riding. NOT saying she was a carousel rider by any means or speaking ill of the deceased. But even if you were labelled a slut at one point in your life, in this degenerate society it is a relatively easy faux pas to live down. So many celebrities have starred in such internet videos that the social taboo is less than it would have been in previous generations. Just speculating of course. She obviously couldn't see a way forward. But personally, if I had her life, warts and all (and believe me, her wart ratio compared to mine is minor), I would take it. Being a pretty young Parisian internet pron sensation wouldn't be the worst fate in the world in my book by any stretch. It's all relative, though.
 
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Difficult to understand why a young beauty such as this would willingly meet such a violent end. She had a ton of mileage left in her and could have easily lived down a stupid internet sex video, does she have any idea how many women get away with carousel riding. NOT saying she was a carousel rider by any means or speaking ill of the deceased. But even if you were labelled a slut at one point in your life, in this degenerate society it is a relatively easy faux pas to live down. So many celebrities have starred in such internet videos that the social taboo is less than it would have been in previous generations. Just speculating of course. She obviously couldn't see a way forward. But personally, if I had her life, warts and all (and believe me, her wart ratio compared to mine is minor), I would take it. Being a pretty young Parisian internet pron sensation wouldn't be the worst fate in the world in my book by any stretch. It's all relative, though.
Yes. women's lives are so easy, aren't they? we all just "get away with carousel riding". We're all such sluts.

Welcome to Ignore list.
 
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Difficult to understand why a young beauty such as this would willingly meet such a violent end. She had a ton of mileage left in her and could have easily lived down a stupid internet sex video, does she have any idea how many women get away with carousel riding. NOT saying she was a carousel rider by any means or speaking ill of the deceased. But even if you were labelled a slut at one point in your life, in this degenerate society it is a relatively easy faux pas to live down. So many celebrities have starred in such internet videos that the social taboo is less than it would have been in previous generations. Just speculating of course. She obviously couldn't see a way forward. But personally, if I had her life, warts and all (and believe me, her wart ratio compared to mine is minor), I would take it. Being a pretty young Parisian internet pron sensation wouldn't be the worst fate in the world in my book by any stretch. It's all relative, though.
Pretty or not... she was suffering. We shouldn't pretend that beautiful people can't suffer because they "can get what they want". I understand what you're saying, but no. It's not only a internet sex video, she was raped. A man took her dignity away. End of the story.
 
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Pretty or not... she was suffering. We shouldn't pretend that beautiful people can't suffer because they "can get what they want". I understand what you're saying, but no. It's not only a internet sex video, she was raped. A man took her dignity away. End of the story.
Revenge porn is no different than rape and there is no way to recover from it. Kim Kardashian had nothing to overcome, because she made that video herself and leaked it on purpose for attention, it wasn't real.
Real women do not recover from that, and no one would let us if we could. It is basically no different than murder but the guys who do it are just trying to make us kill ourselves so they don't get their hands dirty. Men are fucking disgusting.
 
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Revenge porn is no different than rape and there is no way to recover from it. Kim Kardashian had nothing to overcome, because she made that video herself and leaked it on purpose for attention, it wasn't real.
Real women do not recover from that, and no one would let us if we could. It is basically no different than murder but the guys who do it are just trying to make us kill ourselves so they don't get their hands dirty. Men are fucking disgusting.
You're right. I know some overcome it and others don't. Rape survivors struggle with PTSD, anxiety, and depression. It's not easy to recover from rape and sexual trauma. Let's not forget it @lynn14
 
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Just because they go on living doesn't mean they've recovered. People treat them differently for the rest of their lives. After it happens once, we become constant targets of other manipulative assholes. It never fucking ends.
 
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Difficult to understand why a young beauty such as this would willingly meet such a violent end. She had a ton of mileage left in her and could have easily lived down a stupid internet sex video, does she have any idea how many women get away with carousel riding. NOT saying she was a carousel rider by any means or speaking ill of the deceased. But even if you were labelled a slut at one point in your life, in this degenerate society it is a relatively easy faux pas to live down. So many celebrities have starred in such internet videos that the social taboo is less than it would have been in previous generations. Just speculating of course. She obviously couldn't see a way forward. But personally, if I had her life, warts and all (and believe me, her wart ratio compared to mine is minor), I would take it. Being a pretty young Parisian internet pron sensation wouldn't be the worst fate in the world in my book by any stretch. It's all relative, though.

I think it was just the last straw after years and years of mental and physical abuse that resulted in all kinds of damage to her brain. The last straw that allowed her to see life with crystal clear clarity. Being born to be an attractive French woman doesn't make her immune to horrible people, all her life.
Just because they go on living doesn't mean they've recovered. People treat them differently for the rest of their lives. After it happens once, we become constant targets of other manipulative assholes. It never fucking ends.

It's because they prey on damaged people.
 
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I am so blown away by Oceanne's calm determination in her CTB video.
Can anyone who speaks Language de L'amour translate what she was saying for me? This vid contains some long quiet spots while she just reads her comments. I want to know what she had to say.


what an adorable young beautiful woman!
who on earth has broken her?
I am in tears, I know Paris...
 
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yes, she blamed his ex for ruining her life, and she mentioned that she didn't know what to do to get through that and she didn't enjoy life anymore.
she was asked if she'll commit suicide but she denied
I think if she had an emotional and a mental help and support maybe she won't commit suicide.
 
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yes, she blamed his ex for ruining her life, and she mentioned that she didn't know what to do to get through that and she didn't enjoy life anymore.
she was asked if she'll commit suicide but she denied
I think if she had an emotional and a mental help and support maybe she won't commit suicide.

WOW, her ex is really a monster. He didn't even apologize and tell her he will spend the rest of his life making it up to her somehow... Maybe he laughed, the entire time. A lot of sociopaths like that exist in this world. Life is just a game for these people.
 
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