Can someone help me out?

[goodbyeimoutt]

19 year here from Turkey. I don't have money so unfortunately most options are not possible to me ( i think i can save money for something quite cheap but i'd rather go from this world as soon as possible).

What's N? Tried my best to find what it stands for but i couldn't. I know SN is Sodium Nitrate but can't figure out what N is. I'd hang myself but i don't want my mother to find me so i have to do it outside. Can anyone from Turkey (or have information about Turkey) suggest me a method? All i need is A) be painless B) be at outside, not home

 

[FaceOfSilence]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/acronyms-on-here-for-new-users.6031/

 

[goodbyeimoutt]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/acronyms-on-here-for-new-users.6031/

Damn, i had no idea it was that expensive. Well it means i can cross that out of my list at least, my search for a method still continues.

 

[pole]

19 year here from Turkey. I don't have money so unfortunately most options are not possible to me ( i think i can save money for something quite cheap but i'd rather go from this world as soon as possible).

What's N? Tried my best to find what it stands for but i couldn't. I know SN is Sodium Nitrate but can't figure out what N is. I'd hang myself but i don't want my mother to find me so i have to do it outside. Can anyone from Turkey (or have information about Turkey) suggest me a method? All i need is A) be painless B) be at outside, not home

Easiest IMO would be hanging. Im 19 too, moneys kinda tight. Hanging when done properly imo is effecient, maybe not as painful as other methods, and easy to get done and easy to setup and actually do. And yeah, i also worry about people finding me. Id probably advise you to find a isolated place. Even outside seems vulnerable and gives opportunity to be seen and then rescued, just gives time. Maybe far from your home, an abandoned spot or like even just a far away forest perhaps. Id like to preferably do it far away in a cheap hotel alone or something.

 

[Redrock]

SN is Sodium Nitrite. You won't die if you drink sodium nitrate

 

[Jolene40]

19 year here from Turkey. I don't have money so unfortunately most options are not possible to me ( i think i can save money for something quite cheap but i'd rather go from this world as soon as possible).

What's N? Tried my best to find what it stands for but i couldn't. I know SN is Sodium Nitrate but can't figure out what N is. I'd hang myself but i don't want my mother to find me so i have to do it outside. Can anyone from Turkey (or have information about Turkey) suggest me a method? All i need is A) be painless B) be at outside, not home

Is there no hope of things getting better. You are so young. I don't know your story i know. I was a real mess at 19. Things got so much better as i got older mentally.
Theres no easy way to end it it seems

 

[goodbyeimoutt]

Is there no hope of things getting better. You are so young. I don't know your story i know. I was a real mess at 19. Things got so much better as i got older mentally.
Theres no easy way to end it it seems

Even if things got better i'd still have these suicidal thoughts. I have experienced the worst things a child could ever experience so i'll be broken as long as i live. I'm imagining myself as a millionare, still want to die. Imagining myself with a perfect family, result is still the same. I'd kill myself this very second if i could. Not saying these things to sound dramatic, i just don't see any point in living :)

 

[Jolene40]

Even if things got better i'd still have these suicidal thoughts. I have experienced the worst things a child could ever experience so i'll be broken as long as i live. I'm imagining myself as a millionare, still want to die. Imagining myself with a perfect family, result is still the same. I'd kill myself this very second if i could. Not saying these things to sound dramatic, i just don't see any point in living :)

If that's how you feel thats how you feel. Got no idea what healthcare is like in Turkey but imagine it isn't great. Hope you find some peace somehow.

 

[goodbyeimoutt]

Bumping the thread

 

[GeorgeJL]

Even if things got better i'd still have these suicidal thoughts. I have experienced the worst things a child could ever experience so i'll be broken as long as i live. I'm imagining myself as a millionare, still want to die. Imagining myself with a perfect family, result is still the same. I'd kill myself this very second if i could. Not saying these things to sound dramatic, i just don't see any point in living :)

Even though I am pro-choice I also think that you should exhaust your options especially if you so young. I tend to think that when you so young and your brain isn't fully formed yet you can make rash decisions on your life. But really it's worth it to give what we have a shot. You should try some psychedelics, self development, get a life coach, take the self authoring program. Psychedelic ketamine is known to help treat drug resistant depression. Do you have some money?

 

[Soul]

Goodbyeimoutt, I've thought about suicide since I was a small child, and have always been convinced it's the way I'll go. I had a screwed-up childhood, been depressed, got dragged through the psych-hospital mill due to ignorant failed suicide attempts. Your situation is of course your own, and you're the only one who can assess it, but like Jolene40 and GeorgeJL I hope you'll make sure you've tried other options before deciding to ctb. It's not easy to do effectively and failed attempts can mess you up in a variety of ways; and there are good anti-depressants now that can help a lot of us see more value in living. If you want to give it a try.

If you decide to miss this bus, you can catch a later one, you know? Please consider it.

And whatever you choose, I hope it works well for you.