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melp
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- Aug 5, 2020
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I believe that the matter is complex. People have different sensitivity of the nervous system and mental endurance. Comparing problems with those of other people does not explain much. I am simply too little ruthless, too detailed, and I see little things. I gave up a long time ago. I don't feel like trying again.
Some people manage to recover from multiple crises. I can not just motivate myself. Whatever I do, it doesn't feel right after that.
Sometimes I can't accept my weakness, because really and really many people have a much worse situation. I just want to kill myself and that's it. People can live sometimes even after molestation, rape, traumatic childhood, etc. I always have a kind of indifference. I don't understand how you can have such a real determination. Maybe I'm pretty suicidal for no good reason. The world is beautiful, you can change something, you have time etc. You probably won't give me a reason to change my mind anyway.
Some people manage to recover from multiple crises. I can not just motivate myself. Whatever I do, it doesn't feel right after that.
Sometimes I can't accept my weakness, because really and really many people have a much worse situation. I just want to kill myself and that's it. People can live sometimes even after molestation, rape, traumatic childhood, etc. I always have a kind of indifference. I don't understand how you can have such a real determination. Maybe I'm pretty suicidal for no good reason. The world is beautiful, you can change something, you have time etc. You probably won't give me a reason to change my mind anyway.