Deleted member 17331
The swan sang with a broken neck
- Apr 21, 2020
- 376
A few years ago when I stayed in a psychiatric clinic, I noticed that most of my colleagues who were with me also attempted suicide. Most of them (like me), tried impulsively. But what caught my attention at that time was a roommate who (unlike everyone) had a definite date. She marked the month, day and time that she would put her ctb plan into action, and she told me that this was sometimes unbearable. The pain of knowing that her days were numbered made her collapse. Spending all her money, making donations of things considered valuable, getting rid of drawings, diaries and other important things, was one of the things she hated. I don't know exactly why it hasn't been completed. She didn't feel well talking about it, and I respected her space.
I noticed that some users here also have a huge difficulty with dates for ctb. I shared messages with a member and realized that he felt embarrassed to say goodbye with a set date and even wrote that he felt like a fraud for not finishing up and taken over by SI. After that, he ended up banning his own account and I never heard from him again. This should never be a reason to be ashamed or to feel incapable. I miss him so much...
In your perception, can definite dates also be harmful? Has it affected you in any way?
Gratitude for your time.
I noticed that some users here also have a huge difficulty with dates for ctb. I shared messages with a member and realized that he felt embarrassed to say goodbye with a set date and even wrote that he felt like a fraud for not finishing up and taken over by SI. After that, he ended up banning his own account and I never heard from him again. This should never be a reason to be ashamed or to feel incapable. I miss him so much...
In your perception, can definite dates also be harmful? Has it affected you in any way?
Gratitude for your time.