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SuicidalMob

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Aug 11, 2024
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Well im so close to killing myself and if i want to change its now or never I felt like i had to reach out and if anybody wants to help me i really wanna talk of PM me.

Well I'm a 18 Year old boy who spent first 9 years of his life is Australia. After I got back to my fathers native country everything has been so shitty. I remember I had a lot of good friends (Wendy , Sarah , etc many more and some male friends Anderson , parker etc) That time was great still miss you guys . But after shifting to this new asian country ive always felt so numb about making friends , first i had to learn the fuckin hard language which i cant even speak fluently to this day so coud nt make any friends. Now im struck by a lot of mental disorders like tinnitus , schizophrenia etc. And what hurts me even more that i was not able to make any female friends cause of this countries cultures and shit.

Now im at brink of destruction and cant even talk to people (especially women). well i miss my Aussie friends so much😔💔. Im going through a lot and have a very few friends to talk to , i ve been so lonely that it actually hurts and sometimes causes very bad abdomen cramps and very strong chest pain.

So, if anybody is will to give me some of there precious time (male/female), ill love to chat with you guys
SO YEAH PM ME I REALLY WANNA TALK , idk we might make some friends. maybe play some games together 🫂🤗
 
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LostInTheWoods

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Oct 28, 2023
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I love having female friends for many reasons and yeah it's nice to have this type of relationship (even because i'm basically asexual so I don't fall in love) but at the same time everytime I build a great friendship with a girl I have even stronger suicide idealization because I start to think that it would be nice dedicate CTB to someone. It wouldn't resolve anything becaue my problems are structural and my life would be full of issues anyway, but at least I would have some company and a better self esteem.
 
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