Men are raised to just DO things, take care of business, do what needs to be done, i was just thinking the other day how i wish i was raised like that instead of being a "needy whiney bitch" (i was in a bad mood at the time, i know thats not true about women) i actually used to get mistaken for a guy in suicide chats/forums when talking about how much i wanted to blow my face off because shotgun was my ideal method and i finally got one but waited too long til it was taken. I cant get another gun now , but i still think about dying violently , that might have something to do with never having felt quite like a girl, i was never pretty, boys were always horrible to me and mostly still are (if youre not fuckable, youre not worth respect...well even then..) i feel like if i played my cards right i could aggravate a man into beating me to death just for looking him in the eye!