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A little tired
- Dec 15, 2021
- 35
I feel as though I'm in a similar boat to many other people where finding N or SN is incredibly difficult. I've also looked into Fentanyl patches but all these things are so illegal and tough to source easily. This idea of painless, I'm starting to disregard as I realise that N is the only pain free guarantee and that's not available to me.
My preferred method at the moment is ingesting some pills and ODing, and recently I looked into caffeine pills.
One night I decided to hell with it and took 20 pills (50mg caffeine each) (I weigh around 39kg), not really with the hope of dying, with the hope of something happening and it being maybe a cry for help. But, the effects of 20pills on my body were crazy… while the caffeine was in my body, I lost the ability to walk but felt no nausea, so just laid in bed… all night.
The next week, I had dizzy spells, balance issues, bad eyesight in one eye, bad hearing in one ear, Intense migraines, and extreme drowsiness. I'm back to normal (ish) now.
Thought I'd report back to the class that it's not a fun method, although the worst part for me was the crash afterwards. I realise I just didn't take anywhere near what the lethal dose was for my body weight…
I think this method may eventually be successful for me but I guess there isn't much known about it still.
My preferred method at the moment is ingesting some pills and ODing, and recently I looked into caffeine pills.
One night I decided to hell with it and took 20 pills (50mg caffeine each) (I weigh around 39kg), not really with the hope of dying, with the hope of something happening and it being maybe a cry for help. But, the effects of 20pills on my body were crazy… while the caffeine was in my body, I lost the ability to walk but felt no nausea, so just laid in bed… all night.
The next week, I had dizzy spells, balance issues, bad eyesight in one eye, bad hearing in one ear, Intense migraines, and extreme drowsiness. I'm back to normal (ish) now.
Thought I'd report back to the class that it's not a fun method, although the worst part for me was the crash afterwards. I realise I just didn't take anywhere near what the lethal dose was for my body weight…
I think this method may eventually be successful for me but I guess there isn't much known about it still.