Venting Bye....

[lonelymess]

I just want to say goodbye to everyone here. I have been lurking more than posting. This forum has helped me enornously in my research. So thank you all, for your info, your kind words and support.

In an hour I will take SN. It is strange, I have been planning this for months, could hardly wait till my suffering would be over. And now I am scared. Second guessing. But after a day of doubts, searching for new hope , I concluded that it is just anxiety, fear of the unknown and also it doesn't feel too great to give up on life.

Anyway, I will use a stat dose of domperidone, already took paracetamol and will take a benzo as well, then finally 20 mg of SN .

The thing I hate most , is that I am alone and I could sure use a hug rn.

 

[Kikoo Loool]

I want to give you a hug. I'm sorry tou came to this point. I think of you.

 

[LMLN]

I'm so sorry. I wish I could hug you. Just remember. There's no rush in this decision. There's always another day.

I wish you peace whatever you decide.

 

[MeltingHeart]

Virtual hug to you, i will be in the same boat (on a bus?) next wk too i think, but hope yr as ok as can be expected, if u wanna chat feel free.

 

[Stan]

Hope you have a peaceful journey.

 

[realjunes]

Lonleymess - I am sorry we haven't met yet, but in this moment you should be neither lonely or a mess, we are collectively and virtually here for you, and support you, and send you love and peace wishes.

 

[awfullife]

Thinking of you now and hope you find peace friend.

 

[lonelymess]

thank you all, everyone here is so kind!

 

[imstillhungry]

I'm sorry life drove you to this and that you're alone physically I will be too, and it sucks. But you're definitely not alone metaphorically, we're all right here with you every step of the way Safe journey, see you on the other side x

 

[MissNietzsche]

Will you be updating us as you drink the SN? We'll all be with you in spirit ❤

 

[JSauter]

I just want to say goodbye to everyone here. I have been lurking more than posting. This forum has helped me enornously in my research. So thank you all, for your info, your kind words and support.

In an hour I will take SN. It is strange, I have been planning this for months, could hardly wait till my suffering would be over. And now I am scared. Second guessing. But after a day of doubts, searching for new hope , I concluded that it is just anxiety, fear of the unknown and also it doesn't feel too great to give up on life.

Anyway, I will use a stat dose of domperidone, already took paracetamol and will take a benzo as well, then finally 20 mg of SN .

The thing I hate most , is that I am alone and I could sure use a hug rn.

If it makes you feel any less alone - I'll be joining you soon.

 

[Ark]

I hope you find the peace you deserve. I am sending hugs your way. Please, if you are absolutely sure of your decision then I hope it is as peaceful as it can possibly be. If you are not absolutely sure, think it through, talk it through, everything. You can change your mind unlimited times before, but never after.

No matter what we are here for you. I am here for you. Keep talking to us regardless of what you do.

 

[Time]

I just want to say goodbye to everyone here. I have been lurking more than posting. This forum has helped me enornously in my research. So thank you all, for your info, your kind words and support.

In an hour I will take SN. It is strange, I have been planning this for months, could hardly wait till my suffering would be over. And now I am scared. Second guessing. But after a day of doubts, searching for new hope , I concluded that it is just anxiety, fear of the unknown and also it doesn't feel too great to give up on life.

Anyway, I will use a stat dose of domperidone, already took paracetamol and will take a benzo as well, then finally 20 mg of SN .

The thing I hate most , is that I am alone and I could sure use a hug rn.

Hey, lonelymess. I'm sorry for whatever brought you here but I hope that you find peace. WE'RE here with you, whichever path you choose. Safe travels & sending much love & HUGS your way.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Send you a hug. I wish you succeed in whatever you choose. I'll be here for you when the time comes.

 

[Hank]

I just want to say goodbye to everyone here. I have been lurking more than posting. This forum has helped me enornously in my research. So thank you all, for your info, your kind words and support.

In an hour I will take SN. It is strange, I have been planning this for months, could hardly wait till my suffering would be over. And now I am scared. Second guessing. But after a day of doubts, searching for new hope , I concluded that it is just anxiety, fear of the unknown and also it doesn't feel too great to give up on life.

Anyway, I will use a stat dose of domperidone, already took paracetamol and will take a benzo as well, then finally 20 mg of SN .

The thing I hate most , is that I am alone and I could sure use a hug rn.

Maybe you should have started earlier with the benzo. Because you should not be scared with such a decision. You should be in peace with your decision. My SN arrived last week. I am just waiting for the meto to arrive this week.

I wish you a peacefull and easy transition. Only take the journey when you are content with the decision. It's a shame to go out with bad thoughts or fear. ah.. yeah a big hug!

 

[MissNietzsche]

Maybe you should have started earlier with the benzo. Because you should not be scared with such a decision. You should be in peace with your decision. My SN arrived last week. I am just waiting for the meto to arrive this week.

I wish you a peacefull and easy transition. Only take the journey when you are content with the decision. It's a shame to go out with bad thoughts or fear.

nah, because a benzo would dull her true feelings. I think if OP is scared, double thinking this would certainly be worth it. In my humble opinion, one shouldn't kill themselves unless they are absolutely certain

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Sending love and hugs

 

[Jean4]

Sending you lots of love and peace.

 

[Hank]

nah, because a benzo would dull her true feelings. I think if OP is scared, double thinking this would certainly be worth it. In my humble opinion, one shouldn't kill themselves unless they are absolutely certain

exactly!

 

[ninthhokage]

Wishing you peace.

 

[Girobatol]

Peace to you and hope everything goes as planned.

 

[lonelymess]

zolpidem makes me a bit dizzy and my movements are more like I drank way too much at a party. Cannot walk in a straight line now. Seeing double also. Thinking in English is harder to do. But no head aches or other discomfort.

 

[reapandsow918]

See you on the other side mate

 

[realjunes]

Peace be unto you, lonelymess.

 

[piupianissimo]

Safe journey and may you find peace. Love and hugs to you my friend

 

[realjunes]

I would think zopidem was the last thing to take, and lonleymess it seems left us peacefully. Love & Peace to her/his memory.

 

[Goneforgood]

You are not Alone... Safe travels... See you on the other side. Peace

 

[MissNietzsche]

I would think zopidem was the last thing to take, and lonleymess it seems left us peacefully. Love & Peace to her/his memory.

Are you sure? OP didn't say he/she was going to take it

EDIT: Jk, maybe he/she thought zolpidem was a benzo