BabyYoda
F*ck this sh!t I'm out
- Dec 30, 2019
- 552
I get what you call "relapses" or suicidal tendencies when I'm supposed to be recovering. I had one today that started this morning. The whole day I did nothing but sleep, no games or anything. This wouldn't have happened if I had a romantic partner or a best friend.
I wish I could CTB, but my special person wouldn't let me do so. I don't want to cause him pain after he tried so hard to keep me alive. And we're not even in a relationship or anything like that. Actually, this isn't the only reason why I can't CTB.
As silly as this sounds, the cause for my relapse was a random comment on a Youtube video. It wasn't offensive but it made me angry at this unfair world. I know I should stay away from the internet at times, jeez. But it's hard to do so since this lockdown pushes us to do things online.
I wish I could CTB, but my special person wouldn't let me do so. I don't want to cause him pain after he tried so hard to keep me alive. And we're not even in a relationship or anything like that. Actually, this isn't the only reason why I can't CTB.
As silly as this sounds, the cause for my relapse was a random comment on a Youtube video. It wasn't offensive but it made me angry at this unfair world. I know I should stay away from the internet at times, jeez. But it's hard to do so since this lockdown pushes us to do things online.
