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Lostnotfound
Specialist
- Feb 23, 2020
- 351
I feel like I am totally head fcuked and it's getting worse. im heading ace towards that crisis of needing someone to do something right now, surely there must be someone who can do something but I've been here so many times and apparently there Is not. I can't seem to get a sane thought together without opposing it myself. I don't want to die as I want the life I had which could be got back but it is dependant on my daughter who doesnt appear to care but how can so just turn off feelings so she must care and is gamooing that I wont take my life but she knows I will as I have already tried so maybe she doesn't care in which case I want out of this world as I hate life the way it is and could be will be without my,kids but it's such a waste of everything that we worked for and will I miss having that good life we once had but I can't have it again until she changes and makes that step which she isnt doing and so on and so in and so on. How do I make her see that she will regret it when I am gone so she needs to do something now whilst I am here, especially as there are court orders involved saying no contact. I don't feel I can stand anymore of it but my method looks dodgy so I have to wait another week or so to get SN and I dint feel I can cope with another hour let alone another week.