brain rot

[wiIIow]

more and more, I feel my mind deteriorating the longer I am sick. it's funny, because my mind is constantly active, but feels dead simultaneously. It feels like my brain is chasing its tail, over and over, running itself in the same pointless and obsessive circles. I'm in a loop that I can't escape. I can't concentrate on anything. my actual abilities for critical or quick thinking, interaction, humor, planning, creativity, it's all gone. it's not coming back. my brain is actively rotting and there's nothing I can do about it.

sometimes I suddenly realize that 5 hours have passed and I don't even know what the fuck I did for those 5 hours. Being stuck i this state of haze and electricity in my head is like torture.

I don't know if I make any sense. I'm really slipping away from reality and I can feel it. can anyone relate? how do you deal

 

[21Neberg]

I'm going through the exact same. Suicide is always on my mind, and I can't concentrate on anything. Honestly, I don't know how to deal with it. I'm hoping someone else knows a way of dealing with this.

 

[Dor]

I have had brain fog for a bit over 2 years now, not a clue what is causing it and nothing helps. It's come to the point I've become just used to it :/ It doesn't affect me as much anymore.

 

[wiIIow]

I have had brain fog for a bit over 2 years now, not a clue what is causing it and nothing helps. It's come to the point I've become just used to it :/ It doesn't affect me as much anymore.

I get it, mine really set in when I was 19ish. strangely, 7+ years of this shit and I'm still not used to it. doesn't scare me like it did, but it's just as unpleasant as it was, if not worse. really wish I could make it stop. I always feel like there's electricity pulsing through my body and in my head, and yet I'm so disconnected from reality and trapped in my own mind, while everything feels so far away and as if I'm viewing the world through thick opaque glass

 

[Dor]

I get it, mine really set in when I was 19ish. strangely, 7+ years of this shit and I'm still not used to it. doesn't scare me like it did, but it's just as unpleasant as it was, if not worse. really wish I could make it stop. I always feel like there's electricity pulsing through my body and in my head, and yet I'm so disconnected from reality and trapped in my own mind, while everything feels so far away and as if I'm viewing the world through thick opaque glass

Yours seem much worse. Have you tried high dose B12 supplementing, 1mg, along with general B-vitamin supplementation(normal dose). Might also want try Iron supplementing, iron is the only thing that has actually alleviated my brainfog. B12 and B-vitamin deficiency can cause or exacerbate brainfog, as well as cause iron deficiency which in itself can further exacerbate the symptoms.

 

[wiIIow]

Yours seem much worse. Have you tried high dose B12 supplementing, 1mg, along with general B-vitamin supplementation(normal dose). Might also want try Iron supplementing, iron is the only thing that has actually alleviated my brainfog. B12 and B-vitamin deficiency can cause or exacerbate brainfog, as well as cause iron deficiency which in itself can further exacerbate the symptoms.

oh, I really hope I wasn't coming off as trying to have a pissing contest or something haha, my bad. I didnt mean to imply I was worse off

Ive never stuck with any sort of vitamin supplements, though I know I'm consistently extremely low in iron according to past blood tests. maybe I can try that

 

[shutdownnow]

more and more, I feel my mind deteriorating the longer I am sick. it's funny, because my mind is constantly active, but feels dead simultaneously. It feels like my brain is chasing its tail, over and over, running itself in the same pointless and obsessive circles. I'm in a loop that I can't escape. I can't concentrate on anything. my actual abilities for critical or quick thinking, interaction, humor, planning, creativity, it's all gone. it's not coming back. my brain is actively rotting and there's nothing I can do about it.

sometimes I suddenly realize that 5 hours have passed and I don't even know what the fuck I did for those 5 hours. Being stuck i this state of haze and electricity in my head is like torture.

I don't know if I make any sense. I'm really slipping away from reality and I can feel it. can anyone relate? how do you deal

I can relate, massive brainfog another symptom of my issues. Every time I have a thought unless I write it down quickly on notes its gone.
Like that Dory fish in Finding Nemo

 

[wiIIow]

I can relate, massive brainfog another symptom of my issues. Every time I have a thought unless I write it down quickly on notes its gone.
Like that Dory fish in Finding Nemo

lol yeah, i feel that way too. my memory is complete garbage, it makes me feel so stupid. really frustrating when I try to piece together my past and it's all just disconnected fragments, feels like trying to remember a dream. the harder I try the more it slips

 

[Dor]

oh, I really hope I wasn't coming off as trying to have a pissing contest or something haha, my bad. I didnt mean to imply I was worse off

Ive never stuck with any sort of vitamin supplements, though I know I'm consistently extremely low in iron according to past blood tests. maybe I can try that

Get on that iron immediately, not to sound like a dick telling you what to do, but it's extremely important for your cognitive well being. Also add in B12 and B-vitamin complex with it, more than likely the b-vitamin deficiency is one of the causes of your iron deficiency. Do you take any other medications or pills, try and take it with those. It's best if you take it on an empty stomach. Once you make it a routine to take your vitamins it becomes extremely easy :)

 

[wiIIow]

Get on that iron immediately, not to sound like a dick telling you what to do, but it's extremely important for your cognitive well being. Also add in B12 and B-vitamin complex with it, more than likely the b-vitamin deficiency is one of the causes of your iron deficiency. Do you take any other medications or pills, try and take it with those. It's best if you take it on an empty stomach. Once you make it a routine to take your vitamins it becomes extremely easy :)

you're not being a dick, i appreciate the advice. if something as simple as taking supplements could alleviate some suffering then I'm all for it and I appreciate the suggestion. sometimes it's hard to know where to start when there's seemingly just a compiled blur of various problems interacting with eachother

 

[Armadillo]

I can totally relate.

I'm just a shell of my former self. My thought process is slowed down, memories seem distant and meaningless and I'm so fucking apathetic that I don't even feel like a human being anymore.
Not to talk about cognitive abilities. Concentration, decision-making, reflexes, speech clarity, orientation in space... all gone to hell.

It really feels that my brain is rotting away while my body is still healthy.
I hate what I've become.

 

[Dor]

you're not being a dick, i appreciate the advice. if something as simple as taking supplements could alleviate some suffering then I'm all for it and I appreciate the suggestion. sometimes it's hard to know where to start when there's seemingly just a compiled blur of various problems interacting with eachother

If you can go to a doctors office and get bloodcheck for Iron that'd be good, to confirm you're deficient, then he can prescribe you high dose iron tablets for a certain period. If you ingest high dose iron without iron deficiency it's not too healthy, and only supplementation level of doses of iron won't cut it if you're deficient.

Vitamin B12 however is very safe, and you can take high dose, 1mg, with no problems. rest of B-vitamins I would take supplement dosages of, it should be enough in case of deficiency, buy a B-vitamin complex, it contains all essential b-vitamins.

Oh and do you get enough sun? Vitamin D deficiency might also cause/worsen brainfog/fatigue.

 

[Dor]

Before I started supplementing it was much worse, I was almost bedridden, constantly tired and brainfoged, and I also had physical symptoms like burning sensation in extremeties, sometimes I'd have difficulty breathing, chest pain. At one point I had such hard time breathing and so much chest pain I thought I had a heart attack, at age of 22 :/

Now all that crap is gone except the brainfog, it still persists.

 

[anelakapu]

This is painfully relateable and upsetting that other people are experiencing the same.

 

[creationisdeath]

I had a bloody way of alleviating this for a moment.. but that is obviously not sustainable. It's interesting to see other people having the same thoughts.

I used to be on meds.. not being on them already helps a ton. Their poison makes you even more numb.

 

[SiArc]

I can completely relate to this. Like I wrote it.

 

[Throwaway563078]

My mind is constantly buzzing, there's a lot of (useless /crappy) noise up there and feels dead at the same time. Wish it was more clear and productive thoughts up there. I also find myself passing many hours not knowing how I passed them. Zoned out, feeling lost. It's ironic that my mind is so active but uselessly so. Sometimes certain songs can clear my mind. Sometimes it's calm out of nowhere but for no haven't found any cure.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

This thread is the story of my life. I've posted about my debilitating brain fog several times. My thinking is forever compromised and scattered. It's like my mind is a TV channel with nothing but static. I just can't concentrate, organize my thoughts, or think in any sort of smooth, coherent fashion anymore. I can't absorb things or follow movies/conversations. I've had this for almost five years now.

 

[Dor]

Don't wanna be a repeating nancy but supplementing minerals and vitamins might help alleviate. Strenuous physical exercise can while your doing it completely alleviate it and give your head a breath of fresh air, you'd have to really exert yourself though, but it comes back afterwards. This is of course from my experience.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

I can totally relate. This time last year I was tutoring kids in English which involved prepping lessons, etc. Looking back it's like I was a completely different person. This year I can barely get my thoughts together let alone teach. It's as if my brain is gradually switching off for my upcoming CTB. The brain fog is very debilitating and also related to my illness progressing.

 

[Dor]

I read a few years back that suggested that people with history of psychosomatic symptoms were far more likely to commit suicide...

Maybe why it is so common here...

 

[wiIIow]

It's like my mind is a TV channel with nothing but static.

Holy shit I have used this EXACT description to describe this to people. Either that, or like my mind is several different TV channels playing different things all at once with a couple static channels, depending on when I'm at. I'm sorry that you understand

I can totally relate. This time last year I was tutoring kids in English which involved prepping lessons, etc. Looking back it's like I was a completely different person. This year I can barely get my thoughts together let alone teach. It's as if my brain is gradually switching off for my upcoming CTB. The brain fog is very debilitating and also related to my illness progressing.

I'm really sorry to hear. I really hate thinking about the before, where I was actually a whole person who still had potential. I barely even feel like a person anymore, just a prisoner waiting to die.

 

[wiIIow]

My mind is constantly buzzing, there's a lot of (useless /crappy) noise up there and feels dead at the same time. Wish it was more clear and productive thoughts up there. I also find myself passing many hours not knowing how I passed them. Zoned out, feeling lost. It's ironic that my mind is so active but uselessly so. Sometimes certain songs can clear my mind. Sometimes it's calm out of nowhere but for no haven't found any cure.

Yeah I could have ghostwritten this, I usually describe my experience as constant buzzing or static. I never know exactly how to explain the seemingly contradictory deadness yet noisiness of my mind, the fact that the two exist together is exhausting. I feel like my brain is being pulled apart, like some asshole thinks my brain is silly putty and is just going ham on that shit

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Holy shit I have used this EXACT description to describe this to people. Either that, or like my mind is several different TV channels playing different things all at once with a couple static channels, depending on when I'm at. I'm sorry that you understand



I'm really sorry to hear. I really hate thinking about the before, where I was actually a whole person who still had potential. I barely even feel like a person anymore, just a prisoner waiting to die.

"I really hate thinking about the before, where I was actually a whole person who still had potential" < You really hit the nail on the head here. More proof that this life is a complete and utter joke. When you get to this point where there's no more potential you know it's time to call it quits.

 

[Meeseeks]

Not sure if it was mentioned because I scrolled down but consistent daily exercise should help with that. You don't even have to do anything crazy either, just have to walk 20-30 minutes and buildup a little bit.

It always ends up helping me the problem is the initial push because my brain will be gloop and mood will be in the dumpster.

 

[Aesthler]

I get intense headaches and I like to imagine that there is literal brain rot happening, I also kinda hope I have a stroke or something mostly because I remember listening to a TEDtalk about a lady who pretty much lost all her memories and had to relearn everything, tastes and all. She said it was like a huge baggage of old shit got lifted up off her and she said she felt like a completely different person. I've been envious of this lady for a long time.

 

[Kdawg2018]

I have felt this and mental problems with memory and I don't read books anymore, I like to watch Youtube vids cuz they are shorter and I don't like to watch movies anymore. I have to write stuff down a lot as well or I will forget it. I'm scared to end up a person who like doesn't remember where they live as I have had to move so much and I have to move again and I got a new phone number, stuff like that is hard to remember for me, I don't know my new mailing address or phone number, it has only been a few days, but I would have remembered it before I had these issues. I don't understand how ppl function like this, there isn't real help for it unless you are rich, just making appointments and then going is hard, etc, what I feel like is a 90 yr old and I'm in my late 20s, WTF

 

[Bread]

When I was little I did pretty well in school and was very creative. My parents and teachers actually thought I had a fair bit of potential. Then depression came around and destroyed my intelligence. My memory went to shit, I couldn't do math or write essays, reading was too difficult to enjoy anymore, and all of my creativity faded away. I lost the only good thing I had going for me, the singular thing around which I had built my identity. I feel so stupid and slow every day, like my brain is being perpetually addled by sedatives despite not being on them.

 

[ParamitePie]

With the exhaustion which never goes away, constant sense of threats surrounding me, implacable belief that everything is useless,a looming sense of dread and invasive thoughts of death creating countless distractions, it's hard for me to think straight most of the time. If it's something I'm particularly good at, or manage to find some joy in, I'm able to focus enough to get through it, but otherwise it seems impossible to get simple tasks done. It's like I need to exert a ton of energy just to get started on something, and pushing through to the end is a Sisyphean task.