Discussion BPD members

[HowSoonIsNow]

How do you deal with obsessive thoughts about something or someone?
I was fine, but now my thoughts about my favorite person are destroying my capability of being rational. I literally can't stop it and it's getting on my nerves :(

 

[Good4Nothing]

I'm going through something similar.
My favorite person basically told me to fuck off and kill myself, knowing damn well I'm depressed and suicidal.
This happened months ago, and I'm still obsessing about it, I'm consumed with rage, and I can't make it go away.
I hate that someone who doesn't give half a fuck about me has so much power over me, even after so many months, but there's not a damn thing I can do about it.
Every time my mind is unoccupied the anger intrudes.

 

[Xocoyotziin]

Whenever I can feel someone becoming my new FP I find a way to burn my bridges as quickly as possible. There's no problem if there's no one to get attached to.

I'm still basically obsessed with someone from almost a year ago who I knew for literally three days, but the attachment is fairly weak because there's not much for my brain to go on.

 

[Smellanie]

How do I deal with it? I don't. Never learned how lol. I obsess/be clingy. But I don't have much information about your situation. Is it someone you're dating or what?

 

[SipSop]

I hate that someone who doesn't give half a fuck about me has so much power over me, even after so many months, but there's not a damn thing I can do about it.
Every time my mind is unoccupied the anger

Same.
I put documentaries when I got to sleep in order to not think. Keeps my mind busy on listening. It works. I fall asleep like a baby, plus it happens that I do not have troubles with sleeping.
But yeah, I am the same.
The highs of peace, happiness and satisfaction we feel I heard are enhanced many times compared to those of a ordinary person.
The downside of it is that we also get bored easily.
Bpd is quite painful if we do not have our way, don't you think so?

 

[Brick In The Wall]

Are we talking borderline or bipolar here? Both are coined BPD. I've got so much experience in this field and it's extremely common among members here.

 

[SipSop]

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Are we talking borderline or bipolar here? Both are coined BPD. I've got so much experience in this field and it's extremely common among members here.

BPD usually stands for borderline.

 

[Coolchicka]

I'm sorry you're going through this. The best advice I can give you is to make sure you're getting enough sleep.
I didn't get enough sleep bc I was obsessing over an FP, and I ended up psychotic for a month.

 

[HowSoonIsNow]

I'm going through something similar.
My favorite person basically told me to fuck off and kill myself, knowing damn well I'm depressed and suicidal.
This happened months ago, and I'm still obsessing about it, I'm consumed with rage, and I can't make it go away.
I hate that someone who doesn't give half a fuck about me has so much power over me, even after so many months, but there's not a damn thing I can do about it.
Every time my mind is unoccupied the anger intrudes.

I'm sorry, unfortunately one of the reasons of my ctb is basically that, I don't want no one have power over me anymore..

Whenever I can feel someone becoming my new FP I find a way to burn my bridges as quickly as possible. There's no problem if there's no one to get attached to.

I'm still basically obsessed with someone from almost a year ago who I knew for literally three days, but the attachment is fairly weak because there's not much for my brain to go on.

That's a very good idea, unfortunately, I'm really close to this person

Same.
I put documentaries when I got to sleep in order to not think. Keeps my mind busy on listening. It works. I fall asleep like a baby, plus it happens that I do not have troubles with sleeping.
But yeah, I am the same.
The highs of peace, happiness and satisfaction we feel I heard are enhanced many times compared to those of a ordinary person.
The downside of it is that we also get bored easily.
Bpd is quite painful if we do not have our way, don't you think so?

Oh, I'm trying so hard to keep my mind busy but unfortunately is one of my biggest friends, sometimes I'm afraid that she might discover that I stalk her everyday.

I'm sorry you're going through this. The best advice I can give you is to make sure you're getting enough sleep.
I didn't get enough sleep bc I was obsessing over an FP, and I ended up psychotic for a month.

Oh, I never thought that lack of sleep can make you psychotic, I'll definitely try my best to sleep then, thank you!!

 

[Emily_Numb]

My BPD really manifests with abandonment issues. I end up being so vile to my FP because of this. I can't seem to stop it either. When I've been particularly nasty it makes me so depressed and want to CTB even more. The extremes of love and disgust I feel are just exhausting.they are not a disgusting person either, it's just my broken brain that makes them that way.

When you mention obsessive thoughts what do you mean in particular? Are these negative thoughts, paranoia, Lust etc. Advice would be easier to give if you were more specific about what you were thinking.

 

[mpnf]

Same.
I put documentaries when I got to sleep in order to not think. Keeps my mind busy on listening. It works. I fall asleep like a baby, plus it happens that I do not have troubles with sleeping.
But yeah, I am the same.
The highs of peace, happiness and satisfaction we feel I heard are enhanced many times compared to those of a ordinary person.
The downside of it is that we also get bored easily.
Bpd is quite painful if we do not have our way, don't you think so?

Do you mean Bipolar or Borderline? Cause for me according to a psychiatrist I've seen only once and he perceived some traits of borderline ( not sure according to him) do not get any highs..it's only lows.

 

[SipSop]

Do you mean Bipolar or Borderline? Cause for me according to a psychiatrist I've seen only once and he perceived some traits of borderline ( not sure according to him) do not get any highs..it's only lows.

Borderline.

 

[fox21132113]

The term borderline makes me cringe. I can't embrace it, I hate it. I know how you feel, although I'm the quiet bpd

 

[BPD Barbie]

Meds were the only thing that helped me. They sort of made me numb to the vast majority of emotions and triggers. Sadly I have bipolar as well, so it's hard sometimes for me to know what's BPD and Bipolar, like what's real and what's not. Meds come with their own problems though and I have had side effects on them, currently tapering off them slowly to see if they subside. I hope you can find some ways to learn to tame the BPD dragon, it's not an easy task. I've lived with it for a decade now.

 

[minkymomo]

I just want my boyfriend back, I cant live without him
Every moment he says he doesnt love me hurts less than any form of self harm or suicide attempt ive ever had
I just want him back
He was the only thing making me hold on
I dont know how to go on anymore

 

[Lilacmoon]

My girlfriend and I may be on the brink. She was the only reason I was stable for the past year and now I'm losing my mind again. My mind is rolling down a hill and I can't push it back to the top. It feels as if I can't control my thoughts or feelings in the slightest anymore. It feels like there's no escape, no way to get these feelings away.