Venting bpd aint it

[nena21]

Splitted on my "friend" or whatever. She has issues too. So i kept splitting. she doesnt undertand bpd much. so I told her to go away and blocked her. Also she said she didnt wanna talk for some time cuz you know I say hurtful things. got drunk. no money. tried to steal but got caught. drunk annoyed the shit out the guy who caught me. just kept on talking about silly stuff. walked to another store far away. all the bottles are tagged so i cant take them. on the way back the sadness and loss hit me. so just walking home was hard. ill try to steal again later. i prolly be caught again. i dont care much what happens to me anymore. I am sooo broken.
i guess i just sit here now..
i am broken. . im fucking done.
well its my tread and i can write what i want. I am soo hurt. i dont even care about being drunk. I dont even have the motivation to hang myself. I probalby deserve it.
I been thinking and I undertand that im the problem. I will hang tonight when less people are around. im not botherd about drunk or not.