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Wisdom3_1-9
he/him/his
- Jul 19, 2020
- 1,954
Things are worse now than ever before.
I don't see any purpose in doing anything anymore. Probably won't make it to work tomorrow, or ever again. Relationship with husband is irreparably damaged. Don't even want to eat anything.
I'm envisioning my death constantly now. So far, I've seen myself slicing my neck open or stabbing myself in the stomach. I've driven my car into a lake. I've jumped off a bridge. I've stepped in front of a speeding semi. Right now, it feels like the more violent, the better.
Don't be surprised if I stop posting all of a sudden. I can't see myself lasting much longer. And while I wished everything was planned and I could make my goodbyes perfect, I just feel like I should take the chance whenever it comes. Besides, the goodbyes don't seem all that important anymore either.
I joined way too late. I wish I had more time with you all.
I don't see any purpose in doing anything anymore. Probably won't make it to work tomorrow, or ever again. Relationship with husband is irreparably damaged. Don't even want to eat anything.
I'm envisioning my death constantly now. So far, I've seen myself slicing my neck open or stabbing myself in the stomach. I've driven my car into a lake. I've jumped off a bridge. I've stepped in front of a speeding semi. Right now, it feels like the more violent, the better.
Don't be surprised if I stop posting all of a sudden. I can't see myself lasting much longer. And while I wished everything was planned and I could make my goodbyes perfect, I just feel like I should take the chance whenever it comes. Besides, the goodbyes don't seem all that important anymore either.
I joined way too late. I wish I had more time with you all.