SmallKoy
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- Jan 18, 2024
- 229
I took both of my kittens to get spayed today and all I'm saying is nobody told me it was gonna be like this. I'm so unbelievably stressed it's insane. One of my cats is very chill and not taking off the makeshift onesie I made for her, but the other one is just a battle at the moment. It's died down right now, she's wearing the makeshift onesie but usually she wears it for a couple hours then she gets it off somehow. I ordered two actual onesies off Amazon that should come tomorrow and I'm hoping they work and I can keep them on until they are both fully healed from the spay. I fucking hate this. Don't get me wrong I would do anything for them and I will endure this for them it's just not easy. I feel like I'm under immense stress and pressure and I'm SO SCARED either of their wounds are going to open especially since they are such active kittens and are bonded and love wrestling (which I do my best to prevent. They also love jumping and literally everything you can think of. I have to monitor them at all times especially because they're so active.
I'm so tired rn. I got up at 7 am today and am on such low sleep from the stress and anxieties of this all. I'm probably be irrational but this is seriously so stressful for me it makes me want to die. Anytime I feel stressed I feel such overwhelming thoughts of suicide. My brain would rather not deal with it all and just die instead. I would never die BC of my cats. I'm going to take care of them. It's just so fucking hard + school + work + everything else. I know I probably come off really annoying in this but I really am just venting. Thank you if you took the time to read it. I know it wasn't worth it.
I'm so tired rn. I got up at 7 am today and am on such low sleep from the stress and anxieties of this all. I'm probably be irrational but this is seriously so stressful for me it makes me want to die. Anytime I feel stressed I feel such overwhelming thoughts of suicide. My brain would rather not deal with it all and just die instead. I would never die BC of my cats. I'm going to take care of them. It's just so fucking hard + school + work + everything else. I know I probably come off really annoying in this but I really am just venting. Thank you if you took the time to read it. I know it wasn't worth it.