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patheticpartner
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- May 4, 2020
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A mix of a story, venting, and seeking help post.
My ex faked his side of our relationship. He came clean about it after I begged for the truth after he broke up with me. He said he was just pretending, and he waited a year to break up with me because his form of OCD makes him erroneously feel responsible for things. He thought I'd die if he broke up with me, but he ended up breaking up with me since lying wasn't sustainable.
He says that our year was the most miserable and stressed he's ever been because he felt guilty for lying the whole time. He thinks his actions were justified, but he agrees it was a shitty thing to do because he was able to end his suffering (that he himself caused [he was never trapped in our relationship; it was a loving relationship with communication and openness that he just faked, which is why I will never trust anyone's actions/behavior/words again]) whereas I'll always suffer.
I cut contact with him months ago, but now I want to tell him something like "Congratulations on getting away with everything, including murder. Maybe you'll see me in hell."
Can someone talk me out of sending it? I've never felt such a strong need for revenge. I really want to make him emotionally suffer since he basically ruined my life (or I let him, or however anyone wants to describe it).
My ex faked his side of our relationship. He came clean about it after I begged for the truth after he broke up with me. He said he was just pretending, and he waited a year to break up with me because his form of OCD makes him erroneously feel responsible for things. He thought I'd die if he broke up with me, but he ended up breaking up with me since lying wasn't sustainable.
He says that our year was the most miserable and stressed he's ever been because he felt guilty for lying the whole time. He thinks his actions were justified, but he agrees it was a shitty thing to do because he was able to end his suffering (that he himself caused [he was never trapped in our relationship; it was a loving relationship with communication and openness that he just faked, which is why I will never trust anyone's actions/behavior/words again]) whereas I'll always suffer.
I cut contact with him months ago, but now I want to tell him something like "Congratulations on getting away with everything, including murder. Maybe you'll see me in hell."
Can someone talk me out of sending it? I've never felt such a strong need for revenge. I really want to make him emotionally suffer since he basically ruined my life (or I let him, or however anyone wants to describe it).
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