Best time of year to CTB

[FuneralCry]

This is another one of my ctb fantasies, the others being suicide pills and jumping off cliffs. I would like to ideally do it at the time of year I dislike the most.
For me, it is the month of December. I have always had bad luck during that month, as a kid I had the flu and had an ear infection which could have explained the start of my damaged ears. I remember being like 11 and for the first time feeling a wave of despair come over me for no particular reason and I just felt really sad. I think it was because I was dreading the thought of the new year.
My birthday is in December and I despise the thought of growing older. The fact that I was born was the root of my problems in the first place so I do not want to celebrate a day that highlights it. Last year December was the worst month in a long time, I started to get symptoms of visual snow which have improved now but people in my house just believed I was spending too much time on the internet as I couldn't possibly have an 'rare' disease. I think I was probably close to going to a psych ward. It was also painful to see others celebrate while I was trapped with my own thoughts.
This is the most pointless post ever but I know most people don't plan ctb around an specific date, they just choose a date randomly or on an impulse. I think if I had an planned date for it, it would never work out and SI would kick in.

 

[JustAMatterOfTime]

Ear infections suck I have something with my ear where if I get water in it at all I will get an infection, have to use ear plugs when taking a shower, one of my earliest memories is screaming in agony on my mother's bed when I was young with one. Around December is a pretty common month I think or always thought it was from what they say on tv but then I read something on here that said it was March I dunno.

I hate summer the most, have bad memories, and I hate being hot and sticky, and much prefer clothes you can wear in winter so that would be my time of year based on that.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

I think it both depends on the method and on one's personal preferences. For me spring/summer would be best for hanging in the woods or jumping off somewhere like Beachy Head (south-facing, with a blazing sun above...) but with SN or the like I guess it doesn't overly matter.

 

[Shadowrider]

This is another one of my ctb fantasies, the others being suicide pills and jumping off cliffs. I would like to ideally do it at the time of year I dislike the most.
For me, it is the month of December. I have always had bad luck during that month, as a kid I had the flu and had an ear infection which could have explained the start of my damaged ears. I remember being like 11 and for the first time feeling a wave of despair come over me for no particular reason and I just felt really sad. I think it was because I was dreading the thought of the new year.
My birthday is in December and I despise the thought of growing older. The fact that I was born was the root of my problems in the first place so I do not want to celebrate a day that highlights it. Last year December was the worst month in a long time, I started to get symptoms of visual snow which have improved now but people in my house just believed I was spending too much time on the internet as I couldn't possibly have an 'rare' disease. I think I was probably close to going to a psych ward. It was also painful to see others celebrate while I was trapped with my own thoughts.
This is the most pointless post ever but I know most people don't plan ctb around an specific date, they just choose a date randomly or on an impulse. I think if I had an planned date for it, it would never work out and SI would kick in.

I always feel most suicidal in December - but exactly because this is my favourite month. I always dream about having fascinating last memories. Winter and short, really short daytime. (I was born in the early summer, maybe this makes it forgivable.) And, because two of my preferred methods work better at winter time - plus, if they find me, my remains will be a bit less gross.
I can absolutely relate to you being unhappy with the fact that you were born! I would have preferred never to be born.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

Anywhere between January 1st and December 31st is an excellent day to go.

 

[WornOutLife]

I would like to ctb in my B-DAY (Jan, 3rd) or on the 21st of any month. I just love that number.

 

[Adamsnolife]

My method of jumping, I probably wouldn't do it during a school holiday. That's when everyone is out and about.

 

[LifeIsCrazyNemb]

This is another one of my ctb fantasies, the others being suicide pills and jumping off cliffs. I would like to ideally do it at the time of year I dislike the most.
For me, it is the month of December. I have always had bad luck during that month, as a kid I had the flu and had an ear infection which could have explained the start of my damaged ears. I remember being like 11 and for the first time feeling a wave of despair come over me for no particular reason and I just felt really sad. I think it was because I was dreading the thought of the new year.
My birthday is in December and I despise the thought of growing older. The fact that I was born was the root of my problems in the first place so I do not want to celebrate a day that highlights it. Last year December was the worst month in a long time, I started to get symptoms of visual snow which have improved now but people in my house just believed I was spending too much time on the internet as I couldn't possibly have an 'rare' disease. I think I was probably close to going to a psych ward. It was also painful to see others celebrate while I was trapped with my own thoughts.
This is the most pointless post ever but I know most people don't plan ctb around an specific date, they just choose a date randomly or on an impulse. I think if I had an planned date for it, it would never work out and SI would kick in.

Wow its incredible how FC looked like a human being with some heart back in the earlier times

 

[Ligottian]

T.S. Elliot said in a poem that April is the cruelest month. I was born in April. He must have been right.

 

[walkingdead2023]

I hate December too! I don't really plan to die on specific day but it's nice to know which day in advanced to get things together.. by next week I have to have a ctb plan to end my suffering. I'm done with life.

 

[Unhumanly.]

Talking about time for ctb I've planning countdown knowing I'm open to some source for method

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I think for most methods the time of the year isn't important. However for an attempt with CO and charcoal summer could be the worst time of the year!

 

[Captive_Mind515]

Halloween would be my ideal time I guess. I like all the mystery and folklore around that time of the year. I'm not really scared of the dark or anything, I've always enjoyed the atmosphere at that time of the year.

And there is something quite fitting about ctb'ing when everything else is dying off, the leaves are falling etc. I can become a ghost or a ghoul to haunt people… that would be fun!

 

[Endisclose]

I think January would have been the best time for me to go. It's pleasant during that time where I live. I don't want to go during the monsoon that's between August to December. I don't mind if it's hot either.. Summer is just as good.

 

[day]

Truthfully anytime during the spring or summer sounds good to me. Recently been wanting to jump and have great fancies about a nice weather pattern before making the decision. I think if the weather was nice and the night was calm it'd make it easier to let go of SI and just do it already.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Wow its incredible how FC looked like a human being with some heart back in the earlier times

You'd be surprised just how much of a human being she seemed back then. If you look at some of her other posts here, she even acknowledges that people are happy and that her vents are repetitive

 

[OrphicEnd]

It might be interesting to see from which thread she started to withdraw into herself.

 

[Daxter_87]

It might be interesting to see from which thread she started to withdraw into herself.

I don't want to speak for her, and I don't know what her reasons are, but after seeing how much hatred she's received over the years, it's no wonder she doesn't open up like that anymore. And to see her speak so personally is... endearing.