Venting Best friend

[reki_haibane]

I am someone who talks a lot about himself, my thoughts, the events of my day sometimes just to fill an awkward silence, other times simply to vent. With my friends, I do vent, but one of them doesn't know how to respond or engage. For a few years now, no matter how much I ask about him and his problems, he doesn't talk. He even seems to judge the questions. I always reach out first I call and I text but he doesn't open up in return. I says maybe he's just like that, that this is simply the way he is… so I tell him, When you are ready, I am here.

Yesterday, while hanging out with the group, we were talking about many things. I said casually that my heart is on my tongue, that I want to express myself and my feelings, and that I don't mind reaching out first. Then he mocked me for it in front of everyone else. I believe that earthly things money, power, knowledge, authority are meaningless, and that what truly matters is people. But then he made what I believe into a joke… a stupid joke. It just hurt. It seriously hurt the disappointment.

I don't think I regret saying anything to them, but yeah, perhaps they don't deserve me. And it made me think: if the only meaningful thing I believe in can hurt me this way… what would be left for me... Fuck how weak the human being is sometimes I don't know what to do now

 

[twistedtransistor47]

In my opinion.... Maybe he doesn't open up to you because he's scared of being vulnerable. Or he doesn't do introspection to untangle his own thoughts and emotions and that's why he has trouble responding to your own.

I hate opening up to people for a few reasons, I have trouble putting certain feelings into words and I also hate feeling vulnerable, but I would never ever make fun of my friend for expressing themselves... that's an asshole thing to do. Sorry that happened, you don't deserve that