Lou_Charthethird
A lifeless husk
- Dec 19, 2025
- 15
I grew up in a spot where no one was queer in any way shape or form. Everyone was the exact same person over and over and over again, with a uniform hatred towards anything that was not expressly cishet and white. It messed with my head, i felt like i was going crazy with no one to break this stupid binary. I actually only realized myself that queer people weren't inherently bad when i was really depressed in middle school and started watching some youtube animators who were asexual/demiromantic, and i was so shocked to understand that queer peopls weren't inherently worthless, as crazy as that sounds. Thats the kinda place i grew up in, that brainwashed us into only valuing those of our own norms and standards and discriminating against all that dont fit into it. I didnt even get to truthfully explore my sexuality or my gender until recently, but I've realized that my subconscious has automatically suppressed any ability to be nonconforming to the norms of life; i physically cannot exist as my true self anymore, it just simply would lead to too much stress and depression and uncertainty that my brain has chosen to ignore the concept of being different. I wish i couldve been born in a normal environment, even if it were a red state, bec atleast then there would be people like me, but there isnt, so there isnt a "me" anymore.
