W
WeslieZX
Member
- Apr 11, 2021
- 20
Hello everyone. I've browsed these forums for a few years but never posted until recently. My suicidal thoughts and depression have gotten really bad to a point where I don't want to overwhelm the people around me and I can see them getting tired of it, so I decided this forum would be a better place to express myself.
I don't know if I have much point in posting this thread but to vent. But does anyone else oftentimes receive the advice to "be kind to yourself", and get frustrated? It doesn't make sense to me at all. I know that I'm worthless and a terrible person. Everything I do is fucking wrong. I work a deadend office job with no possibility of upward mobility, while going part-time through a school program that I half-ass and don't even care about. I barely have any friends, and have never even been in a relationship. I have no meaningful or impressive skills to speak of. I've had years and years to improve myself but have never been able to commit myself to anything. Why in the fuck should I be "kind" to myself? And what does being kind to myself even look like when I hate everything about myself?
I don't know if I have much point in posting this thread but to vent. But does anyone else oftentimes receive the advice to "be kind to yourself", and get frustrated? It doesn't make sense to me at all. I know that I'm worthless and a terrible person. Everything I do is fucking wrong. I work a deadend office job with no possibility of upward mobility, while going part-time through a school program that I half-ass and don't even care about. I barely have any friends, and have never even been in a relationship. I have no meaningful or impressive skills to speak of. I've had years and years to improve myself but have never been able to commit myself to anything. Why in the fuck should I be "kind" to myself? And what does being kind to myself even look like when I hate everything about myself?