Venting Being ignored by my family members drives me to the edge

[Claymore7274]

I have decided to live another year, but i don't think i can bare with all this isolation, i can't have a normal conversation with neither of my parents because they just wont listen to me, they see me like a child who doesn't get to have his own opinions and points of view, i am a grown adult.

It's tough to talk with my middle brother too, he's also going through his own depression and anxiety but that does not mean he can be a dickhead towards me anytime he wants, he only wants to talk but not listen to me, like a stranger, giving orders.

The rest of my family straight up ignores me, i have given up long ago trying to interact with them, It's driving me insane, i want to be treated and valued like a normal person. Can't i have a little bit of attention and love?

 

[sanctionedusage]

im counting on my family for the impulse to ctb when the conditions are right

ill probably start a conversation neutrally and they'll do the rest for me, with the random verbal attacks and freakouts reminding me what ill be escaping