manwewaslonely

manwewaslonely

shrug
Jun 13, 2019
31
I'm not a bad person, I don't manipulate people or hurt them. I internalize it all to myself, but the stigma and having this disorder is a death sentence. Unlovable, no identity and everyday it feels like someone I loved died.
 
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LittleBabyNothing

Suffering Autointoxification
Nov 22, 2020
432
Hi, I'm bpd too. I can totally relate to all you say. Is your diagnosis new? Bpd can be recovered from, it takes hard work and time but many can significantly improve their traits and behaviours. I have good management of my bpd and am now trying to address my identity and self worth issues. Seek and do all you can to access dbt therapy, make sure they are personality disorder specialist, do the group therapy as well as 1-1, it's essential in bpd treatment. Address the trauma if it's relevant. Bpd is horrid, for many it is fatal, but not all. Don't believe the stigmas believe in Yourself! And those days you can't manage that, always believe in unicorns. Stay Beautiful
 
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chad2018

Member
Dec 17, 2022
11
i am not dxed with bpd but i am really afraid that i have it. the way i've (mis)handled my relationships with people has quite literally ruined my life in many ways, i am pretty much a pathological liar, but as you said it's not like i deliberately want to hurt or manipulate people, but after all is said and done that is what i do, whether i intended to or not.
i know it can be worked on and improved over time, but a part of me feels resigned to just being who i am. regardless of whether or not i have bpd, i have lost all motivation to improve myself. it doesn't seem to matter, anyway
 
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