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kindawannacrylol
Student
- Jan 13, 2021
- 142
I haven't yet moved out of my parents house, (I'm planning to leave after my last year of university). For some reason my suicidal feelings heighten a lot when i'm at home. I can't function or do work and i get extremely tired, i can't sleep either and i just toss and turn and cry and cry and cry. When i am able to sleep i experience nightmares a lot, the themes are usually homophobia, rejection, hell, violence etc. And my migraines start to get worse aswell. I physically can't function and i simply procrastinate for hours and hours, my plans to ctb properly are always close to failing when i'm at home because i get so desperate to end my life i start to look for dangerous and risky ways. I really don't know why this only happens when i'm in my parents house? I could have a really good day but as soon as i come home to this house everything changes dramatically and i can't control my emotions anymore.