Being a failure

[RileyTanaka]

I'm a failure in life.

I failed making money in a decent career, which was something my parents always wanted for me.
I failed in keeping my friends.
I failed in keeping up my health.
I failed, and it's a huge reason I just want my life to end.

Who else can feel this? What did you fail with?

Not that it's good to commiserate in being a failure, I just needed to get it out because it haunts me every single day. There is literally no point in me developing any new hopes or dreams because I just know I'll fail ultimately now, especially now.

 

[XYZ]

XYZ reporting for duty. Failure forever. Failed at all the important tests in life. Man I'm like a shooting star thar keeps on falling. Which is kinda funny when I think that a shooting star is just a bit of space junk burning up in the atmosphere. Shouldav chosen Space Junk as my username.

 

[Good4Nothing]

Me, too. I'm 48 and I have nothing. Never thought I'd live this long, so never planned for the future. It's my failure at finding someone, being loved by someone, that pains me the most, though.

 

[ebt88]

Have you picked a ctb method?

 

[Deleted member 18655]

My list is too long and almost five decades old (social, academic, financial, professional, physical, emotional, spiritual, and on and on). Failure is just a character flaw now; I don't even notice it anymore

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I relate so much. I'm a complete failure in everyway possible.
- failed in school- didn't get any degree to have a career
- failed in jobs (chronically unemployed)
- failed to be independent, functional adult who can handle normal life responsibility
- failed in relationships and I'm terrified I'm fucking up my current one
- failed friendships because people get fed up with a depressed constantly negative person
- failed health...I was addicted long time and have quit everything but benzos but it's taken toll on health

In general I failed at everything possible and set myself up for failure not success because of poor decisions and my mental issues. I put blame on myself, my circumstances and the person who abused me and broke me.

 

[ocd is bad]

I failed at everything too. School, jobs, friendships, relationships (haven't been in one but if I was I'd fuck it up). I don't know what's wrong with me.

 

[Sensei]

I can't stand thinking of all my failures; it's an immediate suicidality trigger. I try to look forward and not compare myself with others. It's almost impossible, but it's the only way I can cope. It's do or die.

 

[RileyTanaka]

I can't stand thinking of all my failures; it's an immediate suicidality trigger. I try to look forward and not compare myself with others. It's almost impossible, but it's the only way I can cope. It's do or die.

I think I've stopped trying to cope to be honest. These days I rather just face the cold, hard, unbridled truth and be realistic about the future. But I respect that you are trying to adapt and make the best of the situation. I guess I'm just pretty much done hoping or dreaming.

 

[Thinking]

I failed by hurting my friends and family by not being there for them and hurting them emotionally. I am failing to meet the academic and life expectations of my family. I am failing at the things I want to be good at it. I am failing at self care.

 

[RileyTanaka]

Sometimes I like to watch videos about famous/rich people just to really nail it into myself - really remind myself that I'm a massive failure.

 

[Grav]

Usually fail at something or don't realize I didn't so it still goes in the fail file. There's only been one major failure, but it's one that hangs over me all these years. All because I wanted to be part of the gang and it cost me the one job I ever wanted. Nothing will compare so each day is just a "well you could have had..."

 

[TAW122]

That sums up my life in a nutshell, while I had ok grades in academia, outside of that, I haven't amounted to much in life, not that I care that much about it because I've been wanting to die over a decade ago, it's not something new. According to society, what matters in life, I've fallen short of, having family (don't care about that, prefer to be single), having financial independence (important but don't care a lot because I am going to die so why not), good health (not great, but not the worst, I suppose it could be better, but again if planning to die young who cares), getting luxury and being overall socially successful (I don't care about the 'status' to my peers, they can be super successful but so what, I don't care for the things that society deems important).

 

[schopenh]

I don't feel like I as an individual failed, I feel like I was failed, mostly by healthcare practitioners and also failed by the random statistics of bad genetics.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I don't feel like I as an individual failed, I feel like I was failed, mostly by healthcare practitioners and also failed by the random statistics of bad genetics.

yeah I can relate.