dec132013
Member
- Aug 6, 2020
- 98
I have no idea how to say this because i don't want to sound like an attention seeker, but my god i need attention
P much my entire life everyone likes to act as if i'm not there. When I was in school teachers wouldn't notice me if I raised my hand, get left out all the time (I once had someone laugh at me when I asked if they wanted to do a group project with me-) etc... Hell, at that age I tried to ctb on several different occasions and every time I'd wake up alone where i passed out, (altho that's better than being forced into a ward) no one ever wondered why I'd disappear so often, probably wouldn't have even if i succeeded
Everyone I have contact with now seem to never want to talk to me, (unless it's cuz they need something ) usually leave me on read. The most human interaction I get is at work, and holy shit even there (host @ restaurant) some customers straight up ignore me
I have no idea wtf i'm doing to make people not want to acknowledge my existence, I try really hard to not be annoying but at this rate it's like the only thing I can do to make others happy is to ctb so there's a 0% chance of me bothering them again. I've been fantasizing about what'd it be like to have a close friend for years and now that i'm done grade school I can't imagine it ever happening since i have no way to meet anyone now.
P much my entire life everyone likes to act as if i'm not there. When I was in school teachers wouldn't notice me if I raised my hand, get left out all the time (I once had someone laugh at me when I asked if they wanted to do a group project with me-) etc... Hell, at that age I tried to ctb on several different occasions and every time I'd wake up alone where i passed out, (altho that's better than being forced into a ward) no one ever wondered why I'd disappear so often, probably wouldn't have even if i succeeded
Everyone I have contact with now seem to never want to talk to me, (unless it's cuz they need something ) usually leave me on read. The most human interaction I get is at work, and holy shit even there (host @ restaurant) some customers straight up ignore me
I have no idea wtf i'm doing to make people not want to acknowledge my existence, I try really hard to not be annoying but at this rate it's like the only thing I can do to make others happy is to ctb so there's a 0% chance of me bothering them again. I've been fantasizing about what'd it be like to have a close friend for years and now that i'm done grade school I can't imagine it ever happening since i have no way to meet anyone now.