Been thinking about suicide, but don't know how to do it properly.

[BeautifullyDumb]

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Today, I kind of(? tried to kill myself by hanging ( did a noose knot I reckon), I hung it, put myself in position...etc. But, obviously I failed. First I'll tell you the process, maybe one of you lot can help me out, like figure out why it won't work.

I hung the noose but since I was kinda scared, I opted for having my feet on the ground and just leaning forward until I kinda choked.
Honestly it felt awful. Like I had a this weird sensations in my face/head and stuff. Maybe it also didn't work cause I removed the pressure too quickly?? But, I did so because I felt like it was taking too long and I was suffering for no reason . I tried like 3 times or so, each time I tried to tighten the knot more and I tried to get myself to get my feet off the ground or at least like get on my knees so like I asphyxiated faster (does that make sense??), was too scared though.

Another reason I kept backing out though, was because I kept hearing noises and keeping in mind my parents were home, I was paranoid so I kept stopping to check and stuff.

Now I have a bruise on my neck yay!! Hopefully nobody notices.
Tomorrow I might post a picture of the set up, if anyone cared.
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Other ways I've tried: pill overdose and alcohol poisoning/ other liquids not made for consumption ( will explain if asked).

Also don't know if it matters, but I'm on the heavier side so..makes me doubt about the hanging methods. (5'2-'5'3, 66-70kg)

Also, I know there's many forums that talk about methods and such, but most methods include things I don't have access to (drugs, etc). I do have fluoxetina cinfa which is a type of antidepressant, maybe I could overdose with that?? But I doubt it and it'd take forever..
Was wondering if anyone knew a method that didn't hurt but also didn't include stuff hard to obtain.

Any advice is appreciated

 

[jane_doa]

So I gathered you attempted partial hanging if your feet were still touching the ground, partial is more difficult to pull off especially when you loose consouosnes and your body starts to trash around which might take the pressure from the ligature

Feeling like your face/head is about to explode is a red flag - it means the ligature wasn't placed in the right spot on the neck. It should be putting pressure on your arteries and you should be knocked out swiftly

I wouldn't even try to OD, it's painful and has low success rate of CBT

 

[BeautifullyDumb]

So I gathered you attempted partial hanging if your feet were still touching the ground, partial is more difficult to pull off especially when you loose consouosnes and your body starts to trash around which might take the pressure from the ligature

Feeling like your face/head is about to explode is a red flag - it means the ligature wasn't placed in the right spot on the neck. It should be putting pressure on your arteries and you should be knocked out swiftly

I wouldn't even try to OD, it's painful and has low success rate of CBT

But how do I know where is the right place?

 

[jane_doa]

But how do I know where is the right place?

The arteries are in the side od the neck, try feeling your neck just below the chin - the pressure supposed to be put where you feel the strongest pulse

 

[BeautifullyDumb]

The arteries are in the side od the neck, try feeling your neck just below the chin - the pressure supposed to be put where you feel the strongest pulse

and uh, what do you mean "the pressure should be put" like.. Could you explain?? I thought you just like..tie the knot, put your head there and that was it.. But appearently it's way more complicated

 

[Baisley]

Don't feel bad. I can't figure out how to properly hang either.

 

[BeautifullyDumb]

Don't feel bad. I can't figure out how to properly hang either.

It's nice to feel less alone

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

ODs are a waste of time.

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