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tiredflower
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- Sep 28, 2020
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I've made many attempts on my own life, heck. Thinking back though they were totally in impulse and all that happened was stints in a&e and icu. Followed by psych ward which I couldn't stand and fought to get out of, as I don't see myself as somebody who needs to be in a psych ward.
how can those around us not see how much pain we are in? I'm always told 'thank goodness you're still alive' But why? Why should it matter to anyone else if I am an unhappy? It's all for selfish gain in my eyes. Nobody can live in this much pain and they shouldn't have to.
I've never thought this seriously about ctb before, in the sense I need to plan it and act whilst calm and not impulsive. SN is so hard to obtain though, I reckon I'll still round for a while. Hey, who even knows I may feel differently in a few months but I doubt it.
how do I find sellers for SN? I know it's not allowed to be posted publicly here but could do with some tips.
how can those around us not see how much pain we are in? I'm always told 'thank goodness you're still alive' But why? Why should it matter to anyone else if I am an unhappy? It's all for selfish gain in my eyes. Nobody can live in this much pain and they shouldn't have to.
I've never thought this seriously about ctb before, in the sense I need to plan it and act whilst calm and not impulsive. SN is so hard to obtain though, I reckon I'll still round for a while. Hey, who even knows I may feel differently in a few months but I doubt it.
how do I find sellers for SN? I know it's not allowed to be posted publicly here but could do with some tips.