Sleeper System

Sleeper System

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May 5, 2022
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" Fall deeper into the illusion and remain there for as long as you can.
It's better than the alternative. Be blissfully and purposefully ignorant.
Stave off the self destructive thoughts in your brain.
Push them as far back or as far down as you possibly can.
Forget searching for meaning and purpose. Just try to live comfortably.
Work your little job. Complete your little goals. Keep your eyes shut.
Hope that when you open them again you will be at deaths door.
Because death is both patiant and inescapable. "

I'm trying to keep those words close to my spirit.
Doing rather well given the circumstances.
I feel like I'm always standing in the middle of a cliff...
Looking forward watching the ground infront of me slowly fall to the ocean.
Waiting until it gets to the point where the ground beneath my feet gives way and I too fall into the depths. It all sounds rather depressing and edgy.

Trying to trick your own mind into not focusing on yourself is hard work.
Especially when it's you inside the body experiencing life.
I have a lot to be thankful and grateful for even though it's very little in terms of society and the economy.

This site being here helps me a lot. I could always write this stuff in a journal and never show the world. I like the fact I can sure my words here with like minded sad people as equally or more sufficiently in the throws of despair than even me. I appreciate the support and will continue to contribute when ever I can. đź’€


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