Back to wanting to ctb

[eaturdirt]

I'm so tired and alone. I felt a bit better when I came to Canada but I have to go home in two days and I feel sick just thinking about it. I had this idea to try to move to Canada, thinking that I actually had a chance to do that, but now im realising that it's totally unrealistic. I'm just 18, I don't have a job, I don't have the money or the connections…. It's not going to work. At the end of the day there's something wrong with ME and that will follow me where ever I go. I can't make friends in my home country so i wouldn't make them in Canada either. Why am I so pathetic. What's wrong with me? I just want the certainty that came with being in a relationship with my ex back. I felt whole back then, now I feel like a ghost of my former self. I'm hurting so much. I'm going to get the stuff I need for my ctb soon. Hopefully I'll be able to go around Wednesday.

 

[theboy]

I understand your feelings of pure agony. I hope you find peace and life. Pm if you want to. Sometimes life is very unfair

 

[meowingnomore]

for what it's worth, without trying to sound condescending or anything, i don't think i realised all the possibilities the world had for me when i was 18. circumstances were brutal and awful back then, and then over time they got better and i managed to get through a lot of things i never expected to. if u have a want inside u to live but circumstances are pulling u back, it could be worth taking a little more time and seeing what the world has on offer for u. i hope u find peace one way or another <3

 

[lizzywizzy09]

for what it's worth, without trying to sound condescending or anything, i don't think i realised all the possibilities the world had for me when i was 18. circumstances were brutal and awful back then, and then over time they got better and i managed to get through a lot of things i never expected to. if u have a want inside u to live but circumstances are pulling u back, it could be worth taking a little more time and seeing what the world has on offer for u. i hope u find peace one way or another <3

This is true IF the person has their physical health. Hopefully op has this.