Venting Attempting Life

[LittleBabyNothing]

So i am trying to consider/attempt life over suicide but every way i turn, everything just slaps me in the face. Not so much external factors, my life is ok, but in my thoughts, feelings and experience.
The only space i can see to step foward that doesn't get me slapped in the face has a bottle of SN in...

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

No god reached me, faded films and loving books
Black and white TV
All the world does not exist for me

 

[LittleBabyNothing]

No god reached me, faded films and loving books
Black and white TV
All the world does not exist for me

Loveless slavery, lips kissing empty
Dress your life in loathing
Breaking your mind with Barbie Doll futility

i feel so stuck right now but your reply made me smile. Thank you!