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scottishlass
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- Oct 25, 2023
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So this is not the first time I've tried everything to die on my own terms. Having clicked the button and ordered what I need again and I feel at such peace with the decision. I can't wait to take the ethylene glycol and pills. This time I'm making sure I will not be found. It's a painful way to go but part of me thinks I deserve to suffer. My mental health team have no idea I'm like this again, my parents just cut me off on the phone when all I want is a simple hello. I think of the friends who would be better off without me, and finally I wouldn't have the constant battle in my head of hiding how I truly feel.
I wonder does anyone else out there, when people brand you a "warrior or survivor" all it makes you want to do is die faster. I am the shell of the person I used to be before I was attacked and I will never want to live with my body in the state that it's in now. I will keeping trying to die, it will work and I will finally be at peace.
I wonder does anyone else out there, when people brand you a "warrior or survivor" all it makes you want to do is die faster. I am the shell of the person I used to be before I was attacked and I will never want to live with my body in the state that it's in now. I will keeping trying to die, it will work and I will finally be at peace.