Venting ashamed

[silentsinger]

I haven't been able to post much here lately. I'm utterly ashamed of the way I have deteriorated physically recently.

I still try to post the odd thing but it has been hard for me. I feel like I always say the wrong things to people. I would never want to upset anyone by saying the wrong thing and sometimes it holds me back from speaking out.

I couldn't go through with my latest attempt. It makes it all the more embarrassing every time I try. I suppose it is just circumstances. I could never post on here as to the reason I didn't manage it, it would sound so cheesy. But there was something/someone that stopped me going through with it. The reason/person I didn't go through with it wont see this post but it helps to just express your gratitude sometimes. In all honesty, I'm glad that I had a reason not to go through with it. I want to fight harder and keep trying because I am lucky in some ways.

I apologise for posting this, I'm not thinking straight.

 

[lululoo]

Don't be ashamed, you can't control it.

Delaying because you may want to keep fighting or because someone affected you in some way is also nothing to be ashamed of.

I've only seen you being kind here and doubt you have ever upset anyone. I think your mind is just playing tricks on you.

 

[silentsinger]

Delaying because you may want to keep fighting or because someone affected you in some way is also nothing to be ashamed of.

Thank you so much. I feel very lucky that I had a reason NOT to do it this time. I'm so grateful that there was reason for me not to go through with it. You are also always so kind yourself. Thank you for such a nice response Lululoo xx