As I'm lying here in bed

[Under The Graveyard]

I'm having the thoughts of the last few months roaming through my mind. The disappearing journey I took, where I went, what I saw, and now being where I am.

Depressing to say the least, but it seems to me that I was more content being out there roaming. I wasn't bothering or hurting anyone. As I said in my other thread, the thoughts of suicide wasn't as strong when I was gone. But now that I'm back in captivity, the urges have returned and seem stronger. The darkness has returned.

 

[Live Free or Die]

 

[ItsMe-Hecked]

Can you share more? Was it like running away, or was it more like living in the woods?

 

[Under The Graveyard]

Can you share more? Was it like running away, or was it more like living in the woods?

I wouldn't say it was running away, or living in the woods. I was living with my brother when I up and left. I was going through an extremely rough couple of days, and I didn't think, I just did it. I started walking and didn't stop. I would stop and take naps under a bridge or in the woods for a bit, then start back down the road.

I got stopped in some town by a cop who asked for ID. That's where it all went downhill. He ran my name through and I came back as a missing person, along with being unstable and suicidal.

He was a cool cop though. He didn't put me in handcuffs or the car as long as I didn't attempt to run. 10 minutes later another car pulled up and I was escorted to a hospital to be checked for possible self inflicted wounds. Several hours later I was sent to the hospital near home, spent November and December there, and released to this place this month.

 

[ItsMe-Hecked]

I wouldn't say it was running away, or living in the woods. I was living with my brother when I up and left. I was going through an extremely rough couple of days, and I didn't think, I just did it. I started walking and didn't stop. I would stop and take naps under a bridge or in the woods for a bit, then start back down the road.

I got stopped in some town by a cop who asked for ID. That's where it all went downhill. He ran my name through and I came back as a missing person, along with being unstable and suicidal.

He was a cool cop though. He didn't put me in handcuffs or the car as long as I didn't attempt to run. 10 minutes later another car pulled up and I was escorted to a hospital to be checked for possible self inflicted wounds. Several hours later I was sent to the hospital near home, spent November and December there, and released to this place this month.

Ah okay. That doesn't sound too bad, and the time away sounds fairly relaxing. How did you get food?

 

[Under The Graveyard]

Ah okay. That doesn't sound too bad, and the time away sounds fairly relaxing. How did you get food?

I had money from my disability check. I would go into a gas station or store and find something to snack on. I don't eat much food, so the snacks were to keep my stomach from hurting and growling all the time.

 

[ItsMe-Hecked]

I had money from my disability check. I would go into a gas station or store and find something to snack on. I don't eat much food, so the snacks were to keep my stomach from hurting and growling all the time.

Ah nice!

 

[FuneralCry]

I know it can be a dreadful feeling when things just get worse, and it can be horrible when everything seems hopeless. I'm sorry you are in this situation. I wish you the best.